Ridethecircuswheel
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Oct 10, 2011
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Hello BL,
I'd like to start this with: If you're struggling with any sort of addiction and are in the first few days of doing so, please have strength and remember all the reasons you quit instead of letting your addicted brain play tricks on you.
I've been a heroin junkie for about 3 years. I'm only 21 too, so youth is on my side, but trust me it won't be for long because time FLIES when you're a junkie living day to day on each fix. I'm an incredibly weak, overprivileged person. I think being overprivileged makes me weaker so as soon as I even begin to feel the pain of withdrawal I start scheming for how I'm going to get high right away. I start smoking cigarettes in January so I've smoked for 7 months. I started smoking while I was on suboxone and quickly found my way up to smoking a pack of day because I suffered from boredom, no job, and an aching heart from losing my girlfriend.
I jumped from heroin to loperamide and am tapering by 2mg each day. It's gonna be a quick drop but I find it will be easy to deal with because I just moved to a major city and have a shot at college and a structured life. I find stressful change HELPS me get clean because I have a lot going on and a lot to look forward to.
So. Has anybody had to quit both drugs AND nicotine at the same time? I'm going to go ahead and assume a lot of people have, mainly because we all run out of money at some point, and if it boils down to smoking or getting high I'm gonna assume you picked getting high and had to suffer the mental anguish of being high without that nicotine jolt.
I find that it's not too hard to quit smoking (i know i havent smoked very long) but i honestly believe that it depends on how much the drug means to an individual that pretty much can determine how hard it is to quit. My dad has been smoking for 30 years and when we're together I find myself lighting up way more cigarettes than him. To me this means that I'm more impulsive, and he's more relaxed about his addiction.
Every so often the urge to smoke just pops into my head and if i sit and walk myself through the urge it will go away in 5 minutes. After a meal is when I really want a cigarette. As for the opiate withdrawal I'm going to say that the loperamide is helping but I still feel restless and irritable and am suffering of extreme boredom which is a symptom of opiate withdrawal for me.
I'd like to start this with: If you're struggling with any sort of addiction and are in the first few days of doing so, please have strength and remember all the reasons you quit instead of letting your addicted brain play tricks on you.
I've been a heroin junkie for about 3 years. I'm only 21 too, so youth is on my side, but trust me it won't be for long because time FLIES when you're a junkie living day to day on each fix. I'm an incredibly weak, overprivileged person. I think being overprivileged makes me weaker so as soon as I even begin to feel the pain of withdrawal I start scheming for how I'm going to get high right away. I start smoking cigarettes in January so I've smoked for 7 months. I started smoking while I was on suboxone and quickly found my way up to smoking a pack of day because I suffered from boredom, no job, and an aching heart from losing my girlfriend.
I jumped from heroin to loperamide and am tapering by 2mg each day. It's gonna be a quick drop but I find it will be easy to deal with because I just moved to a major city and have a shot at college and a structured life. I find stressful change HELPS me get clean because I have a lot going on and a lot to look forward to.
So. Has anybody had to quit both drugs AND nicotine at the same time? I'm going to go ahead and assume a lot of people have, mainly because we all run out of money at some point, and if it boils down to smoking or getting high I'm gonna assume you picked getting high and had to suffer the mental anguish of being high without that nicotine jolt.
I find that it's not too hard to quit smoking (i know i havent smoked very long) but i honestly believe that it depends on how much the drug means to an individual that pretty much can determine how hard it is to quit. My dad has been smoking for 30 years and when we're together I find myself lighting up way more cigarettes than him. To me this means that I'm more impulsive, and he's more relaxed about his addiction.
Every so often the urge to smoke just pops into my head and if i sit and walk myself through the urge it will go away in 5 minutes. After a meal is when I really want a cigarette. As for the opiate withdrawal I'm going to say that the loperamide is helping but I still feel restless and irritable and am suffering of extreme boredom which is a symptom of opiate withdrawal for me.

