The Shadow of a Lie
10/13/99
Wait, let’s stop a moment
an unprecedented pause in the flow
maybe we should turn around again
there’s something I’d like to know
was it just me, or did we loose something back there
is it just me, or do you feel it, too
the way it all tastes different now,
like I’ve draped myself in the shadow
of a lie?
Let’s turn around and face the wolves
or maybe it’s something else, thirsty and growling out there
look at those mirrors, aren’t they fools?
The way they’re whispering, the way they stare?
The clouds above me get gray and sickened
and then I turn to you, to find I stand alone
I’m confused here, I’m lost somewhere
and I want to go home
but I’ve forgotten what this place is
let alone how to get there.
There’s a snake at the base of my spine, hissing and yearning to rise
why is it waiting, why is it crawling through my legs and between
yours, the figment, the girl, the lost dream?
Am I just an animal, or is it just that I’m just scared?
The serpent drives me, a cry sweeps me
across foreign lands, were I answer
and I find it’s just an echo, and I chase my shadows to another
who takes it from me, and she leaves me to wonder
was it just the animal in her
or was there a secret agenda, a hidden drive,
have I been deceived? This guilt drips from my heart
and I turn to my brain, and my heart leaves it alone
and, sure enough, it defeats itself again
only quicker this time, it’s had practice fucking itself
oh no, there is a change sweeping over me
it’s rhythm, it’s motion, it’s passion, it feeling
lost from the thought, the constraints, the muck,
open in the wind of freedom and water
why do I seek the confinement?
Why do I seek my old prison?
And where are you?
Me and this shadow of mine
we’ve come so far, but
wait, let’s halt a moment
an unprecedented stop in the flow
maybe we should turn around again
there’s something I’d like to know
was it just me, or did we loose something back there
is it just me, or did I loose you, too
it all smells so wrong now, how I am
like I’ve draped myself in the shadow
of a lie?
[ 21 December 2002: Message edited by: rewiiired ]
10/13/99
Wait, let’s stop a moment
an unprecedented pause in the flow
maybe we should turn around again
there’s something I’d like to know
was it just me, or did we loose something back there
is it just me, or do you feel it, too
the way it all tastes different now,
like I’ve draped myself in the shadow
of a lie?
Let’s turn around and face the wolves
or maybe it’s something else, thirsty and growling out there
look at those mirrors, aren’t they fools?
The way they’re whispering, the way they stare?
The clouds above me get gray and sickened
and then I turn to you, to find I stand alone
I’m confused here, I’m lost somewhere
and I want to go home
but I’ve forgotten what this place is
let alone how to get there.
There’s a snake at the base of my spine, hissing and yearning to rise
why is it waiting, why is it crawling through my legs and between
yours, the figment, the girl, the lost dream?
Am I just an animal, or is it just that I’m just scared?
The serpent drives me, a cry sweeps me
across foreign lands, were I answer
and I find it’s just an echo, and I chase my shadows to another
who takes it from me, and she leaves me to wonder
was it just the animal in her
or was there a secret agenda, a hidden drive,
have I been deceived? This guilt drips from my heart
and I turn to my brain, and my heart leaves it alone
and, sure enough, it defeats itself again
only quicker this time, it’s had practice fucking itself
oh no, there is a change sweeping over me
it’s rhythm, it’s motion, it’s passion, it feeling
lost from the thought, the constraints, the muck,
open in the wind of freedom and water
why do I seek the confinement?
Why do I seek my old prison?
And where are you?
Me and this shadow of mine
we’ve come so far, but
wait, let’s halt a moment
an unprecedented stop in the flow
maybe we should turn around again
there’s something I’d like to know
was it just me, or did we loose something back there
is it just me, or did I loose you, too
it all smells so wrong now, how I am
like I’ve draped myself in the shadow
of a lie?
[ 21 December 2002: Message edited by: rewiiired ]
