neverwas
Bluelighter
All my life ive strived and strived.
Constantly seeking,
Looking to find.
That love,
Over and over again lost.
Forever looking for approval.
Conforming to something,
That was never me.
I look in the mirror,
And what do I see?
A face.
Cold,
Bleak,
Sad,
Lost.
Is that really me?
Im not what I thought.
I thought what I was,
I am not no longer me
For this imitation
Is all that you can see.
Where have you gone?
Where did you go?
The girl that once I was
My independent child
My spirit
That once was strong.
Is now so meak
So low.
The rope around my neck.
The noose
Society has placed.
Weaved by being moulded.
Tightened by your hand.
That now turns and leaves.
Leaving me alone
To look at this imitation face.
Constantly seeking,
Looking to find.
That love,
Over and over again lost.
Forever looking for approval.
Conforming to something,
That was never me.
I look in the mirror,
And what do I see?
A face.
Cold,
Bleak,
Sad,
Lost.
Is that really me?
Im not what I thought.
I thought what I was,
I am not no longer me
For this imitation
Is all that you can see.
Where have you gone?
Where did you go?
The girl that once I was
My independent child
My spirit
That once was strong.
Is now so meak
So low.
The rope around my neck.
The noose
Society has placed.
Weaved by being moulded.
Tightened by your hand.
That now turns and leaves.
Leaving me alone
To look at this imitation face.

