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i will juice it now i am trying to get better i HURT too bad to think even
 
AutoTripper said:
You are not supposed to eat, chew the celery hylite.

It needs to be juiced, neat. 16 OZ empty tummy wait half hour after, ideally.

I gather all the fibrous pulp in a straining bag too like nutmilk one would do ring it out, get so much extra juice from it.

I couldn't chew threw a bunch of celery myself. I wouldn't even try.

But juicing it creates a much greater medicinal powerhouse anyway. 16 OZ organic ideally.
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maybe i can blend it with some garlic too. garlic heals too.
I AM LISTENING I PROMISE. just slow cause of being so fucked damaged pain depressing help
me @AutoTripper

PLEAS FUCKING HELP ME god help
 
hylite said:
maybe i can blend it with some garlic too. garlic heals too.
I AM LISTENING I PROMISE. just slow cause of being so fucked damaged pain depressing help
me @AutoTripper

PLEAS FUCKING HELP ME god help
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No. Zero combining either.

This is emphasised.

It's a frequent misconception, error.

It reduces the way pure celery juice works so dramatically and quickly to heal.

It must be as such. Neat, raw, organic if getting well is REALLY ones goal truthfully, never emphasised enough.

Optimally, first thing consumed daily.

Wait half hour before anything else, i.e. coffee.

Avoid fat if possible for 2 hrs to optimise the work it does.

Reduce fat in general.

Any time any how is still good though, but this way is like a commitment to a medicinal powerhouse.

Done daily, cravings for bad foods espec sugar diminish.

Much easier to be drawn to the right foods.

We haven't gotten to that, yet!

BL was down or I would have answered this sooner.

You don't need to feel bad at all. I understand. I'm in shape myself.

I am working 27/7 lol to master plan a route to what could only be called victory here still, hence my seeming robotic tone today, it's not "with you".

Need some plans.

Raw carrot juice is excellent too. Celery juice is the most powerful medicine though.
 
Yes BL was down.

I PROMISE I WILL JUICE THE CELERY MY FRIEND

I WILL and not MIXING ANYTHING with it.

I have to work coming up soon and I will stop at the store on the way back.

I have a juicer. Was too sick to use it.

We are angels .

I am too I am an angel that isn't dead yet, just trying to pass.

Yes I will do !!!!!!!!!!!! the celery to become pure again.

I LOVE YOU @AutoTripper SO MUCH HONEST.

I found my summer cloths and swimming stuff. AFTER I drank some pomegranate juice.

I LOVE YOU MY @AutoTripper ANGLE I LOVE YOU THANK YOU DEARLYYYYYYY

JUST FUCKING THANK YOU. I KNOW WHAT I NEED NOW THANK YOU

It makes sense. but didn't know HOW IMMACULATELY GREAT THA T IT WILL BE.

I LOVE YOU FOREVER.
 
I WILL STOCK UP ON CELERY ON THE WAY BACK FROM WORK.

WOW LOOK AT THE PUN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS A SIGN

GODDDDDDDDDD I KNOW IT IS

SO ARE YOU @AutoTripper I KNOW YOU ARE HERE TO HELP

GOD I LOVE YOU

YOU FUCKIN SAVED ME

DO YOU HEAR THAT ??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

that's all i can say right now
i am too weak I FUCKIN LOV YOU <3
 
hylite said:
YOU FUCKIN SAVED ME
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I really hope so, but one day at a time.

I'm actually trying to save us all you know.

I just can't believe I am still so challenged just saving me first.

But I know what I am up against. Just never anticipated such extreme enduring herxeimer for so long.
 
@Blankenstein how are you getting on man or does anyone know?

I'm doing alright. My mental healths in tatters. But I'm coping everyday. I was emotional (suicidal thoughts and feelings etc) to the point of wanting to relapse so much yesterday because of circumstances and still am to a certain degree but I'm not quite as bad - instead of emotional and dark things are a little brighter and I have been reading about Buddhism so learning to not be so worried about what I can't control etc. Been microdosing and it's helping a lot. pretty bored but I think logically and spiritually if I keep the goal in mind (getting better) then eventually it will happen and progress is being made. Just have to remind myself of this in hard times like these. PTSD diagnosis means I might get the proper treatment or at least understand myself more. I love it here thank u everyone for making this place what it is.
 
iTry91 said:
@Blankenstein how are you getting on man or does anyone know?

I'm doing alright. My mental healths in tatters. But I'm coping everyday. I was emotional (suicidal thoughts and feelings etc) to the point of wanting to relapse so much yesterday because of circumstances and still am to a certain degree but I'm not quite as bad - instead of emotional and dark things are a little brighter and I have been reading about Buddhism so learning to not be so worried about what I can't control etc. Been microdosing and it's helping a lot. pretty bored but I think logically and spiritually if I keep the goal in mind (getting better) then eventually it will happen and progress is being made. Just have to remind myself of this in hard times like these. PTSD diagnosis means I might get the proper treatment or at least understand myself more. I love it here thank u everyone for making this place what it is.
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We love you too. !!
 
iTry91 said:
@Blankenstein how are you getting on man or does anyone know?

I'm doing alright. My mental healths in tatters. But I'm coping everyday. I was emotional (suicidal thoughts and feelings etc) to the point of wanting to relapse so much yesterday because of circumstances and still am to a certain degree but I'm not quite as bad - instead of emotional and dark things are a little brighter and I have been reading about Buddhism so learning to not be so worried about what I can't control etc. Been microdosing and it's helping a lot. pretty bored but I think logically and spiritually if I keep the goal in mind (getting better) then eventually it will happen and progress is being made. Just have to remind myself of this in hard times like these. PTSD diagnosis means I might get the proper treatment or at least understand myself more. I love it here thank u everyone for making this place what it is.
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That's firstly genuinely refreshing, encouraging you say you actually went ahead, proactivity microdosing AND it's helping.

I say to all people's in dire straits like you report having been...too many atm I swear. Something "in the air" for sure.

The microdosing will be gradual still so be pateint.

Give it time, you at least might need no medication for the PTSD, and any other therapy has far higher chance of really helping.


I say, for now, commit continue down this path and well done too.

Keep hope and spirit it's really half the battle, as survival expert Bear Grylls emphasises even.


I think your thinking, mental focus and logic there is brilliant too. How you put it.

I think I saw this in you already though.

Keep on girl.

Along with microdosing, I dunno if you are using say 0.2 grams Psilocybin or 10-13 ug LSD?

But for amazing outcomes, there is the "Stamen's protocol" which combines a few non psychoactive nerve healing brain boosting supplements synergistic with psilocybin.

Lion's mane being one.
 
iTry91 said:
@Blankenstein how are you getting on man or does anyone know?

I'm doing alright. My mental healths in tatters. But I'm coping everyday. I was emotional (suicidal thoughts and feelings etc) to the point of wanting to relapse so much yesterday because of circumstances and still am to a certain degree but I'm not quite as bad - instead of emotional and dark things are a little brighter and I have been reading about Buddhism so learning to not be so worried about what I can't control etc. Been microdosing and it's helping a lot. pretty bored but I think logically and spiritually if I keep the goal in mind (getting better) then eventually it will happen and progress is being made. Just have to remind myself of this in hard times like these. PTSD diagnosis means I might get the proper treatment or at least understand myself more. I love it here thank u everyone for making this place what it is.
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sorry you are struggling but it sounds like you are doing all the right things. it takes time and its a very up and down process which is annoying if you're like me and want linear improvements.

do you have a buddhist centre near you? honestly i started going to mine for meditation when i'd just got out of rehab and its helped me so much. i'm now doing a weekly study group and trying to practise. not doing well but i really need to kick my ass. it might be worth seeing what classes you can attend nearby cos i find actually being at the centre in itself is healing. i come out feeling renewed every time i go. there is something about the people who follow that path, i want what they have, which is why i'm trying to do what they do. and, i've been studying it for 4 years now and found very little i actually disagree with. i love its non-dogmatic, practical focus.

and yes @Blankenstein let us know how you're doing man!!
 
chinup said:
sorry you are struggling but it sounds like you are doing all the right things
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That's what's difficult lol I could really do with something to take the edge off especially having to deal with stuff I've never faced that's just unavoidable and because it's still bothering me in a big way, I will be starting trauma therapy plus I need grievance counselling too I think but I don't know how that works...but sure we'll discuss it all first I'd hope. The thing is I'm really really not looking forward to it and apprehensive about relapsing cause I know it is going to be really difficult plus I've been teetering on the edge of a "lapse" for a while now. I'm actually making steady improvements in understanding myself I think though and I have been able to identify and address some aspects of my personality that are based on fear and therefore can manage them and accept myself a bit more in the process.

Feeling much better today again... And yes I'm similar would quite like linear improvements I think lol. I go to recovery groups and smart meetings and some people when they get clean or sober seem to be happy as Larry now that they have...which is great! But it's bitter sweet coz I long for that feeling and not just existing still (even although I force myself to stay busy and socialize most days) e.g. someone spoke about hill climbing and I was thinking I've literally just done that and still felt liking jumping off the top... Like Jesus fuck I want to get better it's just intrusive thoughts like that lol - if u don't laugh you'd greet! I think the therapy will help with this stuff. I've just had a massive rant and it feels good lol.

chinup said:
you have a buddhist centre near you? honestly i started going to mine for meditation when i'd just got out of rehab and its helped me so much. i'm now doing a weekly study group and trying to practise. not doing well but i really need to kick my ass. it might be worth seeing what classes you can attend nearby cos i find actually being at the centre in itself is healing. i come out feeling renewed every time i go. there is something about the people who follow that path, i want what they have, which is why i'm trying to do what they do.
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Yes! I have been meaning to go for ages! I think I get the wanting what they have thing my recent psychologist was like that...and inspired me to get into it more recently. I am defo gonna go to my local centre, there's a few to choose from - thanks for reminding me! Sound like it's been a big thing for ur recovery 🙂 I can understand why. When I looked before I think I can sign up for like an intro course or something like that and then I can go to more things and stuff... I'm gonna actually just sign up now while I'm feeling better and in the mood haha.
 
iTry91 said:
That's what's difficult lol I could really do with something to take the edge off especially having to deal with stuff I've never faced that's just unavoidable and because it's still bothering me in a big way, I will be starting trauma therapy plus I need grievance counselling too I think but I don't know how that works...but sure we'll discuss it all first I'd hope. The thing is I'm really really not looking forward to it and apprehensive about relapsing cause I know it is going to be really difficult plus I've been teetering on the edge of a "lapse" for a while now. I'm actually making steady improvements in understanding myself I think though and I have been able to identify and address some aspects of my personality that are based on fear and therefore can manage them and accept myself a bit more in the process.

Feeling much better today again... And yes I'm similar would quite like linear improvements I think lol. I go to recovery groups and smart meetings and some people when they get clean or sober seem to be happy as Larry now that they have...which is great! But it's bitter sweet coz I long for that feeling and not just existing still (even although I force myself to stay busy and socialize most days) e.g. someone spoke about hill climbing and I was thinking I've literally just done that and still felt liking jumping off the top... Like Jesus fuck I want to get better it's just intrusive thoughts like that lol - if u don't laugh you'd greet! I think the therapy will help with this stuff. I've just had a massive rant and it feels good lol.
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those types of therapy ARE hard, but they are worth it. its intimidating for sure but i honestly think getting some trauma therapy could give you a massive boost in your recovery.

glad you're feeling better. i totally get there is a lot of toxic positivity in recovery groups. i think a lot of people don't want to admit they're struggling. a lot of the time they are being sincere. i've always had a lot of respect for people who can admit they are struggling in meetings. like seriously if it wasn't a struggle would we need a fucking meeting? if it was fucking easy the relapse rate wouldn't be > 90%!

iTry91 said:
Yes! I have been meaning to go for ages! I think I get the wanting what they have thing my recent psychologist was like that...and inspired me to get into it more recently. I am defo gonna go to my local centre, there's a few to choose from - thanks for reminding me! Sound like it's been a big thing for ur recovery 🙂 I can understand why. When I looked before I think I can sign up for like an intro course or something like that and then I can go to more things and stuff... I'm gonna actually just sign up now while I'm feeling better and in the mood haha.
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did you sign up? honestly it has helped me so much. obviously its not going to be a fit for everyone so i try not to shove it down people's throats but if you've been getting a lot from reading about buddhism its def worth a shot.

what type of centres are near you? i'm not sure it really matters. mine is triratna. i think most western buddhist traditions are pretty similar in terms of practises and obviously the buddhas teaching is common to all of them.
 
chinup said:
did you sign up? honestly it has helped me so much. obviously its not going to be a fit for everyone so i try not to shove it down people's throa
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Not yet I got diverted the other day but I'm on the email list from when I looked before that tells u their upcoming events and courses etc. I think they're Tibetan? I'm not sure. Just hit a bit of a wall today with this feeling of emptiness so I really would benefit of having somewhere like this to go to.
 
iTry91 said:
Not yet I got diverted the other day but I'm on the email list from when I looked before that tells u their upcoming events and courses etc. I think they're Tibetan? I'm not sure. Just hit a bit of a wall today with this feeling of emptiness so I really would benefit of having somewhere like this to go to.
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see if they have anything on this eve. mine has meditation classes every lunch time and evening. i'm sure each one is different but take a look. also i'm not sure what your financial situation is but when i started going to mine they let me pay much less than standard price for everything cos i explained i was recovering from a crisis and didn't have a job, so don't let cost be a barrier if they charge for the sessions.

ts actually turned into a nice day up here. and i slept well, but i'm somehow just knackered and wanna go to bed.
 
chinup said:
sorry you are struggling but it sounds like you are doing all the right things. it takes time and its a very up and down process which is annoying if you're like me and want linear improvements.

do you have a buddhist centre near you? honestly i started going to mine for meditation when i'd just got out of rehab and its helped me so much. i'm now doing a weekly study group and trying to practise. not doing well but i really need to kick my ass. it might be worth seeing what classes you can attend nearby cos i find actually being at the centre in itself is healing. i come out feeling renewed every time i go. there is something about the people who follow that path, i want what they have, which is why i'm trying to do what they do. and, i've been studying it for 4 years now and found very little i actually disagree with. i love its non-dogmatic, practical focus.

and yes @Blankenstein let us know how you're doing man!!
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Yeh I’m ok sorry haven’t been on blue light much. Still alive and kicking. How are you going?

@chinup @iTry91
 
I'm back on Augmentin 875/125...

Apparently what I thought me rn being my own doc was not right. My staphyloccocus aureus needs some more beta lactmoase agents to castrate this "anonymous* shoemaker. So far I felt like a zvu rite and it means the bacteria isn't dead. Now I will go see a doc within the end of summer thing is this month am kinda free.. trying to have some fun with things I know and squeeze some more from this dead orange peel but next being July I'll be busy until half and I need until then to at least be healthy. I've read and even the pharmacist which is still a semi-doc more or less.. I don't take it for grantrd but after a few online research papers was found that amoxicilim/clavulnate has the most rate of activitg against anything but in my case, staph. I was small.. I took this shit like orher kids possibily all way sinve I was a kid and now it sees me all grown up well hello u too!
 
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