*samsonite*
Bluelighter
I've been on meds for yrs, and even when I've quit CT, my tolerance is right where I left it when I started again. I don't know what's wrong with me... I get no euphoria or buzz from opiates but I'm definitely physically dependent on them. I've tried quitting opiates bc of my high tolerance, and have been thru the ringer with alternatives, but nothing else works for pain control and my tolerance remains extremely high. I'm really not getting enough relief from my current regimen so when I cut back it's ugly. I have kids so laying in bed hating life doesn't work out too well. I know I probably should start a slow taper so I don't withdraw but it's hard convincing myself to suffer when I have 20 oxys sitting next to me. Maybe I should look for a legal way to supplement the oxy? The only adult I live with loves opiates, so having someone control my dosing won't work 
Current daily intake is 120mg of oxy with some other meds in the mix.

Current daily intake is 120mg of oxy with some other meds in the mix.
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