The other side.

[NoPromiseMade]

Hey folks, I havent done my DOC (opiates any form minus heroin) in about a month. Mostly do to lack of funds after losing my car and job and license on a fate-full night during labor day weekend. I can feel myself getting away from them, slowly, but the urge is always there and I dont know what I'm gonna do once I have another job and finally get my license back and another car. Luckily that's not going to happen for awhile (six months). I'm taking it easy kinda, I dont like the family I am staying with and the feeling is pretty mutual, they just have no idea what it is like. Reminded of the RHCP song otherside, once you know you can never go back... I hope it's not true.


Anyway I was wondering how people were doing with their own struggles. When was the last time you used? Are you content with life? Are you happy you made the decision to stop? Do you see a way out of your own personal hell?

 

[villian]

Don't stress sobriety in the future so much, you are doing good now and thats what counts. Live for the day..

As hard as you think things may be in the future, alot of stuff can change in 6 months. After you have been clean for awhile it doesn't suck quite as much..

I'm currently more or less sober. I'm going on 6 months no benzos and almost a year no opiates. I still drink and smoke a bit.

I decided to get sober because of a DUI. I totaled my car, lost my job, and got 3 felony drug charges when they searched my car. Spent 3 weeks in jail before I made bond, got a court date in October..

I'm more or less content with life, it's alot better then it was in the beginning. My biggest stress is seeing how these cases go, once I get all the legal stuff taken care of I'll be alot better.

I wouldn't say I have a personal hell anymore -- things have gotten a bit better. Hopefully I can find a way out of my personal purgatory..

 

[NoPromiseMade]

It's kind of funny how bad shit happening actually makes one calmer. (well atleast in my case.)

 

[Lolie]

Don't worry too much about the future right now, just focus on the stuff you need to do to get your licence back, get a job, etc.

Use this time to get yourself onto a good sleep, eating and exercise schedule so that those things have become a habit by the time you have money again. Try to use this time to develop friendships and hobbies which don't revolve around drug use.

And don't give all the credit for staying clean so far to your lack of funds. Plenty of people - myself included - find ways to get their drug of choice even when they have no money so take credit for avoiding that trap.

My own personal demon is alcohol. Haven't abused it for over 12 months now. Didn't really decide to stop, that happened as a side effect of getting my shit together in other ways. When I look at my former drinking buddies spending so much of their time and energy obtaining alcohol, drinking alcohol, and counting the hours/days until they can get more, you bet I'm glad I'm off that rollercoaster.

I'm pretty content with life and anything that I'm not happy with about my life right now isn't caused by not drinking and wouldn't be fixed by drinking. I don't really think about alcohol anymore unless it comes to my attention for some reason. It's not some great temptation I have to struggle with and that has really surprised me given that I abused it for over 30 years.

 

[NoPromiseMade]

Thats really cool keep it up.

I know there are tons of things I could steal and pawn so I guess you are right... hmm that neighbors suburban is usually unlocked, j/k.

 

[blahman8000]

Hey.

It's cool that you're off the opiates, whether that was your choice or just because you don't have the cash. I know that losing my connections and source of money was the main reason I got myself off pills (vikes, percs, oxies, etc.) I was using pretty much daily, although not that heavily. If I'd had enough cash, then I almost certainly would've been picking up a bunch of 80mg OC's constantly.

Also, "Other Side" is a GREAT song.