the only ones who can

[Squirt]

i looked in the mirror.
my mascara was out of place,
my eyes were puffy,
my cheeks were red.
i was a mess.
all the makeup had been rubbed or wiped off.
it was one of the few times i've felt
completely
worthless.
do they realize they're the only people who
make me feel this way?
the only people who make me feel like i don't deserve to live.
the only people who make me feel like i don't belong anywhere.
the only people who make me feel...
completely
worthless.
i know i'm a good person.
i think i'm a good person.
i hear i'm a good person.
but mommy and daddy know best.
and they think i'm worth shit.
they must be right.
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i got in a fight with my parents today and they always succeed in making me feel this way. anyway, i'll delete this in a day or two. just had to get it off my chest.
-- squirt
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"baked. not fried. it's the healthy choice."
"the sweet cotton candy kiss of trancendental bliss."
fuck plur! it's all about the hardcore ass fucking!
((official founding member of the stuck up/8 up crew))

 

[femmme fatal]

don't delete it... it's really good...
that poem has some real feeling in it, and it's feeling very sad....
the only one who knows what's best is you.
aj the femme
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the extra M is for MmmMmmmm
Be Good!!!

 

[brownman]

Parents...amazing people aren't they? When you are younger you feel that they are always right, that they know everything, etc etc...Well, in this case they are wrong hon. You are not worthless, you are a great and beautiful human being that will make mistakes as they did when they were younger.
Hang in there, my BL Daughter. I am sure they said things out of proportion and did not mean what they said. Deep down, I am almost positive that they are very proud of you.
Hang in there. Love ya!

Brownie

 

[Mellabopper]

good god this poem touched me. for real my jaw dropped as i read it. do not delete this!!!
i'm sorry that you're going through these hard times though with your parents. it sucks - getting in fights and what not with those who raised you. yes yes listen to the brownman - when you're younger all you want to do is please your parents (or maybe that was just me, the goody-two shoes?), but when you get older you want to live your own life and they dont always agree with the choices you make... but dont worry, deep down i'm POSITIVE they still love you and care for you, just like you do for them (right?). sometimes emotions just go crazy and you end up getting in a fight with them - its almost a daily occurance with my mother and i...
anyway hugs to ya, and dont ever doubt yourself.

never stop believing
Mellabopper
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animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
"damn the man, save the empire!" - empire records
Corruption is key.

 

[Thelazer]

Damn, that sucks.
Hang in there kid, it will get better!
Jay
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"Roads, where we're going we don't need any roads."

 

[*SWeeT-e*]

This is a beautiful poem hun...please keep it. Sweetie, I know the *exact* feeling...sometimes I really don't know whether I love my parents or hate them more. They can tell me they love me and then make me feel just what you said, completely fuckin useless. I've learned to stop letting other people's opinions of me affect the way I view myself...well at least I say I don't give a fuck...sometimes it's easier said than done. Much luv and respect to ya...and don't bother wasting tears over people who don't truly know you or appreciate the beautiful person that you are.
~kimmy.
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~*~I hope you take a piece of me with you...~*~

 

[Yoyi]

Sweetheart...HUGZ to ya. Keep that chin up and keep moving.
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