messing with opiates is stoopid man....i love drugs of all kinds for all different reasons but wish i never messed with opiates AT ALL!.....hate reading people telling their stories of how good heroin,methadone, oxys, codeiene etc r and how fun it is and how strong the nod is and how much they can take and never rattle.......guys give it time and one day you WILL wake up rattling your ass off and you will be sicking and shitting at the same time its horrific!.....luckily im finally on methadone dose of 65ml/mg a day and on day 19 of my abstinense today YEEEEEY
(dunno if i spelT that right but meh ) and i feel great actually
.....starting to get ME back finally
still not sleeping properly tho, still feeling a bit run down from the aftermath of rattling daily til i had a fix and still wanting to use somedays but going without anyways ! , not the smack fiend that i had becum for so many years
they were overall the WORST few years of my life and i wouldnt wish that lifestyle on anyone not even my worst enemy!!!!!!!!!! Its awful be safe and respect opiates, try n not even bother with them they will ALWAYS start to abuse you!!!!!!!!!! Luckily i got locked up and put on a DRR order drug rehab order from court and its been a godsend.....i always said id never stick a needle in my fem, then a few months ago my arms etc crashed and i needed the big blue 5-6millimeter needles the biggest to get my fem ouchie and i started digging there......i kept my morals luckily but only just !!!!!!!!!!!! Stay safe and happy gettin high ")
So I mean this in the nicest possible way but could you use sentences and paragraphs when posting. I'm not saying this to criticse any of your point of views or put you down. It's simply some constructive advice on making your posts easier to digest and understand.
There are some people who have used safely and cleanly for decades. Who are highly functional, are employed, stable and who discharge their responsibilities in a proper way. Why stop those people from safely enjoying various narcotics when they do so safely and without danger to themselves or others?
Funky, if I'm read my earlier comments. Opiate withdrawals are caused by those who are the victim of pre/post natal stress (when you were a baby in and just out of the womb). Maybe your mum was abused or struggling to survive. Maybe her family kicked out, or maybe your dad was hurtful to her? Your brain was primed to become far sicker then a normal person when exposed to opiates, meth and cocaine (pretty much any drug). Every time you used it meant that your brains response to not having was a similar response to having a cold/flu. Mysterious aches and pains. Discomfort, dissatisfaction and unhappiness?
I applaud your achievement of not using for 19 days but lets be clear there is very little difference between methadone and heroin except one makes you higher then the other whilst they both satisfy your brains deficiencies.
Obviously you need more in your life then just methadone. You've clearly suffered some pretty terrible things, maybe some self-inflicted and others inflicted by some pretty terrible people. But drugs themselves aren't evil. The worst thing about drugs is their illicit nature. Imagine those $500 grams you've purchased over the years. The real cost of producing it was $20 (and that's the RRP at a chemist). If drugs cost that much you would have had a house by now with the money you've spent.
But because of all the money society wastes on law enforcement, as useless as it is, it does act as a predator on drug dealers and traffickers thus giving them a real excuse to jack the price of the drugs they import/manufacture.
Now lastly your comment about collapsed veins and such caused by IV drug use. IF you had been properly taught how to inject, at a clinic. Using clean, sharp needles and not having to use re-use dirties do you think your veins would have collapsed?
Your passionate post about telling people to stop using should be re-thought, and you should see with some analysis see who the real enemy is.
Its no heroin. Its the society that says that instead of doctors, nurses and clinics that can safely help use drugs and get the help you need that money should be wasted on jack-booted cops who with unlimited funds and power have failed utterly to stop drugs from entering our society. Every overdose, every death and collapsed vein can be laid directly at the feet at those who have supported and pushed for opiates and other drugs to remain illegal and restricted.
NB....mind my grammar and errors
