So, I'm amazed that I'm doing as well as I have been doing. The sadness is still here and losing mom was hard because she has been the only relationship I've had with anyone for my entire life. This still seriously sucks because it entails the loss of my mom, the loss of my home, and finding a new place to live. I'm guessing that having to move will take place within the year. I wish I had known what I know now before she died because I might have been able to help extend her life by another few years. I wish I had understood the reason for her shoulder pain much sooner than I did. I figure that I'm in the last chapter of my life and I can't afford to fuck it up. It would be so easy to get lost in painkillers and succumb to addiction once again, but the price is just too ugly and too high. I don't like that my finances are being controlled by my aunt and uncle because mom wrote the trust 17 years ago and I hadn't yet been clean for ten years. This whole process gets a bit frustrating at times. I'm almost 60 years old and I'm being restrained like a wayward teenager in the finances. Mom left me everything, but with the caveat that my uncle gets to decide how much money I get and when. Anyway, I wish I had asked mom to change the will, but I think we both forgot about the fact that she left my uncle in charge of everything. So, the only thing I can really do is to pay for my own lawyer to make sure I don't get screwed.
The Last Chapter of my Life
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