the fear

[fridgebuzz]

and then i saw my fear manifest itself as a sort of bedpost covered in a thick stack of blankets,
or at least i thought it could have been a bedpost from the shape.
in fact it could have been anything under there, but whatever it was had tormented me my entire life,
so every time it showed its face to me i tossed another blanket on it and begged it to go away.
but like hiding under the covers there is no real security in this,
now i realize i'm just a coward for not standing up to it.
so when i revisited my fear i realized i couldn't hide from it since it is part of me,
and my life is now spent removing those blankets to find out what's really underneath there that i've been too afraid to deal with.
it must have been terrible because the collection of blankets i've added to this thing is enormous.
it's painful to get closer to it.
every blanket i remove the fear hurts me to protect itself.
it's its game,
it doesn't want to be seen.
i should have just exposed it from the start.
i suspect if i ever manage to remove those blankets i'll find my soul.

 

[herbavore]

and you will be full of courage you could imagine yourself possessing