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The EADD I'm Fucked Megathread - We Don't Even Know What Day it is

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Still fucked also, had around 100mg of crystal EPH over the course of the day, taken etiz and still awake, though don't feel wired any more, just fucked and want to sleep. I wanted more etiz but it's the ex's and so after much debate texting her at ridiculous o clock considering she has kids and an actual life which will get me a yelling at tomorrow (I already have the draft apology message to send at around 7am when she'll be up)
 
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Yarrrghh, MEEOW, no sleep for 3 days now, only ate twice and now ive got me self a nice cold pasty and a cheestring and a blackthorn probs still enough kitty to go till tomorrow too, but valium will do the trick there and the nice weeeed :)

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I was fucked thismorning when i woke up, a few bottles of bud on top of lots of etiz and 2 diphenhydramines lastnight, and when i first looked at my clock i thought it said 2pm. And i thought oh fuck here we go again, but it was only 9.30. 8(

cant comment about heroin, but i dunno if my brain chemistry changed in the 11 days i stopped taking kratom. I was beginning to feel good without it, and dont think its having much positive effect on my mood now, but the stimulating strains are good for getting things done. Tedious things, like applying for jobs, which i need to continue doing today.

I've only recently noticed you posting about heroin raas, is this a recent thing, or just something you do occassionally ? If you dont mind me asking.
 
It's def an aquired taste (though probs different with mosot of it being shite nowadays)

First time i did gear thought it was shite, just made me puke for hours, fet okay but the puking put me off. fter that when i tried it in lesser doses, it just made me really itchy and get a v v bad case if ;opiate rage' and lose my temper at the slightest thing, dunno hwo common this is for people with little tolerance but i would get fucking furious at anyone & anything!

It wasnt until o-dt came along actually that i fell in love with opiates, first half g bomb of that (after many other smaller doses) and i finally understood, the magic, euphoria and love that opiates can provide. As i lay there drifting off without a care in the world, in an unheated flat with no duvet but warm as if i were bext to a roaring fire, the words going through my mind should've been '...game over'

The euphoric functionality that was the legelnd that was odt, got me through all the Shiite side effects and aquired taste bollocks, when its stopped being available i loved the whole class off drugs :)
 
yeah i remember the opi rages, i wasnt sure if it was benzo or opi induced maybe both. It made me act very uncharacteristically and stupidly. For instance i normally take care of my possessions, but in those kind of moods i would hurl things that were annoying me at the walls or put my boot into them. Fucking ridiculous tempter tantrums like a 2 year old or something, when id never been prone to such acts before. Sure i could be a moody fucker, but never to that sort of extent.
 
Not as fucked as I want to be after an allnighter on hmm about 300mg (over 12 hours) of 2-fa, booze, etz and couple of trams. Been pretty clean living for a good few weeks too...I feel a pull towards doing some good em d m aaayy in coming weeks. Had a few 'moments' tonight but just not got where I need to be right now. Running low on Zopliclone and panic has set in..
 
Overnight acquaitances made with 4-HO-MET and a damnably fine lil thing it is it seems. Unfortunately I had drunk quite a lot of booze before being sensible enough to opt for a proper drug and as said proper drug is very much on the way out it's boozy lout of a predecessor is making it's oiksome presence felt.

One plus point of buggering up my script last week does mean that at least I don't have to toddle off to town everyday if I don't feel like it. Dozy day of sod all with a light serving of bugger all else sounds just the ticket for today.
 
pretty drunk, wish I was on something more interesting.

I'm surprised how upset I am at Knocks passing. As I said before, we never really had any PM's, nor did we have too much to do with each other on the forum itself. But I'm a sentimental and passionate person, and he cared about me when I was at my worst. I never thought I could feel this sad about someone I'd never met.
 
Nice, does 4 have much a comedown Dan? In comparison to say MDMA or meph.
 
Don't really want to be aware of this day so it was wake up, big line of N-E-NorK and a "smoked speedball" of gear n 2-FMA.

Fuck..... Perhaps I should have left Knock's thread be but I knew there'd be so much love shared there n wasn't wrong <3
 
Never felt Ive had anything to contribute to this thread but after spending the last year miserable as fuck I have to put my hands up now and say 'Im megafucked and im sorry but im loving it'

It started yesterday. Ive had no money all weekend - ive been waiting on a gram of ah for over a week so I had to borrow money 3 days in a row to score. Then it started getting good. The man i went to see had run out and promised me 4 items if I took him to reload. The kit was nothing special but it was a nice bonus anyway.

I was really rattling quite badly come yesterday morning - then at half 11 - my ah finally arrived. I did a massive dunt (around 250mg) and by 12 my wds had gone. By quarter past I was feeling quite nice and opiated, then a bong and I was feeling lovely, Ive never really enjoyed ah that much before and have had around just for wd control, but I felt proper nice and fucked, a little bit like the synthetic opiate buzz you get of methadone if you chip it. Then , just to make things utterly perfect, my torrent of Gravity 3d finished downloading so I spent the afternoon in an opiated type ganja blanket watching gravity on my dads 3d telle follwed by a few pellets of flubro and a etizolam to get me off to beddy byes

Got paid this morning, already had a couple of spliffs and 2 whites so once again - im fucked. Im off now start on the gram of gear and bag of weed I have waiting upstairs. Have a nice day everyone =D
 
Tis only a fleeting experience dan come tomorrow all of my bees and whites will gone. My vendor has run out of ah so i cant afford to use it to get fucked, itll be just small bumps for wd control. saying that tho if i can spend the day withour nodding out every 5 mine then I can get down to a serious GTA session as I have plenty of weed. I got the game as an xmas pressie but ive been so down i just havnt had it in me to play it much
 
Things must be bad Stee, getting into things like gaming can be an excellent distraction technique to get your mind off dwelling on depressing or worrying things. I like real time strategy games that need your full attention, and dont leave any room for depressing thoughts. Being locked inside your own head is the worst thing if you are depressed, anything to divert your attention away from that can help with lifting your mood.

It's sometimes tempting to dwell on things to try to analyse depressing thoughts to try to get to the root of the problem, but ive never found that to work, and have found it useless paying too much attention to depressing thoughts, they are just thoughts, you can notice them, but dont have to be dragged down by them. Im sorry if this sounds like bullshit, but i think there's something in it, i havent been able to word things as well as i would have liked.
 
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