Scared The drugs and the life I'm on has me in a stranglehold. mentally peaked and corrupted all at once.

[Joey]

I'm going to lay this out clinically. Then I'll express my own.

I have a horrible case of complex PTSD which stems all the way back to the middle 1990s. I'm 31 years old now, and although I conduct my life the best I can. I'm in a loop that's so sad and sickening to me. I cry myself to sleep almost every night.

Aside from this, these are my diagnoses. I'm going to attach some papers and description to highlight what I've been going through.

Bipolar type II

Link

https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4383414/&ved=2ahUKEwiu4OCEsYH5AhVshIkEHWfzBjsQFnoECC8QAQ&usg=AOvVaw3tRuqkT--r8dOnhN_8c7iy

Autism spectrum disorder

I began drinking at an early age. The first time I used alcohol to self medicate was age 13, to sleep

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/35318541/ My drinking began full binge style age 14 and that continued until I was in a full blown alcoholic condition by age 20. Here's a link to a recovery forum I posted on at the time as 'not sure of myself'

 

[Joey]

soberrecovery

A new tool for teams & individuals that blends everyday work apps into one.

www.notion.so

Living with a Behcet's disease diagnosis

Savannah had visible symptoms of a rare autoimmune disease when she was 17. In this article, she shares her story.

www.medicalnewstoday.com

I’d wish for the visible signs of Behcet’s before a visit — bad mouth ulcers, external genital ulcers, or the large, painful welts that would pop up sporadically under my skin — because I hoped they would validate the hidden symptoms I reported: joint pain, allodynia (the skin on my upper body was painful under the slightest touch), fevers, and fatigue.

Humans have a fundamental desire to feel seen. Unable to accept what he could not see, it wasn’t just my illness that was invisible, I was made to feel invisible, too.

And that's exactly how I feel.

 

[neversickanymore]

I see you and send love Joey

 

[PtahTek]

how may meds have they you on if this has not been covered?