The Breaking Point

[ShelleBear]

The Breaking Point
We all have it. Were just all different in what level our breaking point is at. I feel the rage, the anger. I feel it cursing through each pump of my heart. It feels like someone lit a match to my blood, I feel it flow through my body.
Whatever ounce of caring I had left in me for you is gone.
My body feels like its in enemy territory, and its prepared for a battle.
Your fucking lies, constant lies. Are you sure your name is what you say it is? Cause Im not. Every word out of your mouth is a lie. Dont you understand that lying makes it worse. It makes my rage boil. I FUCKING HATE LIES! Anything can be forgive, but dont lie. And dont lie to me when I already know the truth.
Im right there, on that clifff, one step away from exploding. And the moment I set my eyes on you, Im going to see the enemy.
I dont care about anything anymore. What do you care about, your fucking heroin adddicted family. They get more attention then your own flesh in blood. You fucking took money that was to feed your daughter.....
and your going to wonder why you see a mad women.
I was known for my UNLIMITED patience.........
but this final thing just did it. I look down off the shoulder of the cliff and I feel nothing. Nothing but anger, not even pain. Just madness, rage..........
I never knew what my breaking point was. Now I know. I fought so hard to make it work, now I dont give a fuck. Id rather be alone, than feeling this fire in my veins. Id rather hit rock bottom and reclimb up, without you.
The breaking point. Do you know what yours is? Have you ever felt so much anger curse through your blood? Have you ever felt a need for vengeance. Yea, I see my breaking point. Im on that cliff. But I wont go over. I realize my "precious" gift. I wont go over the edge because of her. If it wasnt for her I wouldve already left this black void.
Pray to god you never reach your breaking point....but Im going to do my best to make sure you do.
Its hard to imagine that you could hate someone so much, when you used to love them so much.
The fire...each pulse of my blood feels in it, and the longer you stay way the more rage and anger I feel.
Ive always been calm. Not now. Im at that breaking point. And I cant wait to release it all on you. You, the enemy.
Yea Im there, the breaking point.........
endless black void, nothing but anger. No feelings...
IM there. The breaking point.
Shelle

 

[AnGeLfAiRy143]

i know exactly how you feel...i am right there with you at this point in my life!!! stand up for yourself...dont let anyone run over you!! be strong!!!

 

[Mellabopper]

awwww, shelle - i know that you and i go through a lot of the same things, esp. recently. when times are rough, anger definitely takes over. it always does... just remember, that while you are angry and things might suck, never put the blame on yourself...
... we are fragile beings, and being toyed with is never fun.
keep your head up hun, and you'll get through it
Mella
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[Yoyi]

Yoyi HUGZ Shelle!!

I believe ppl lie because they dont like things about themselves..or want to be something greater in their mind. Dont let those ppl bring you down. Smile and move on.

 

[EvoldicA]

People try to step over you to make themselves stronger, when its really a sign of how weak they are..don't let anyone try to use you to make them stronger..

 

[cherub]

::::hugs:::::
your words are very touching,, and trying to figure things out is so hard for there is no rythm or reason to it at all

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[TouchyFeelium]

Shell,
I've read all your posts, and I must say that you sound so angry and unhappy. What is it that is keeping you with this "other person"? For the life of me I will never understand why people remain in relationships that only cause them unhappiness. I have witnessed some of the most important women in my life stay in unhappy, unhealthy relationships. Most notably, my Grandmother, Mother, and Aunt. I will not go into detail, I will however say that I have also witnessed the demise of these women. How much more can you give, how much more can he take away? It takes two people to make a relationship work, and if the "other person" in your life continues to drain your love, inevitably you will have no more love to give; not even to yourself.