...was Keira saying 'yes'
wat do i mean?
wat did she say 'yes' to?
well, here's the story...
I knew from Day One that Keira was a very special, out-of-the-ordinary (in a gd way
) woman. Before we even met, as gd friends on the internet (originally via PM, then MSN/hotmail and finally by txt/calling each other), I hoped that she and I could end up more than friends oneday - I'd seen pics of her and yes, they made my heart hammer, as she is gorgeous, but looks r the last thing I care about. Keira seemed to share all my values - she is loyal, empathetic, honest (some say addicts rnt honest but I believe there r exceptions to this...I've only ever lied by ommission, and wen I occasionally lied genuine lies it wud bug me till I gave in and confessed...it always struck me that Keira valued honesty highly too, and I was right - once we became a couple, I realised I could trust her with anything; her DOC, like mine, is methamphetamine...yet wen she stays at my house, if shes run out of her bag of P, even if I've gone out for some reason, I know Keira wud never steal any of mine...), u get the picture, evrything I had bn looking for in a partner, Keira had it!
I was thrilled wen she asked me out, after wed met a couple of times - in fact, I clearly remember being at a friend, Marie's, house wen she txted to say sumthing along the lines of 'hope this doesnt ruin our friendship, wont b offended if u say no but...I like u as more than a friend - wud u consider going out with me?'
I jumped up and ran round the room screaming 'yayyyy!'
Since then, we find it so easy to b together, and, while we know personal space is wise (no couple shud ever b together 24/7...) we sure miss each other wen were at our homes without the other one there.
Its all so natural - we talk and talk and talk, we have ups and downs, like evry couple, but its a more intimate and special, more REAL relationship I've ever had with anyone...it feels...right.
Everything about her - her silky red-brown hair, her brilliant smile, her long fine fingers, the way she walks, the way she talks, the way she parts her hair so one side hangs over her eye, the way our bodies just seem to...fit together in bed...like we were made for each other, but most of all how compatible we are...that was wat made me decide...we may hav only bn a couple for a short time but weve bn friends much longer, long enough for me to know her inside and out.
Long enough for me to know that I wud luv to spend the rest of my life wiv her.
So now u can guess wat Keira said 'yes' to today. I got down on my knees and took her hand, popped the question and as she whispered 'yes', tears rolled down both of our cheeks. It felt so right, slipping my grandmother's old engagement ring onto her finger...and it fits perfectly - its a simple gold ring wiv a silver centrepiece surrounding a small diamond, simplistic but pretty, and just right for Keira. Also the meaning behind that ring is important: Grandma and Grandpa were a devoted couple till Grandpa died, so maybe that rings a gd luck charm in a way! Also, Grandma and I were very close - she understood me more than anyone in my family, so I felt, and wen she died just after I turned 13, it was like losing a sister. Grandma had ADHD, like me. Like me, her 'blabbering on' irritated the rest of the family, and they basically told her to fuck off a lot wen she was talking 100km/h. She, like me, had low self-esteem, and felt useless, as she never managed to get any school qualifications - and was a poor housewife due to disorganisation. She was patient with me, as a hyperactive, misunderstood, frustrated, confused, bullied/abused and secretly self-loathing, little kid. She was a nurse and she looked after me wen I stayed at home, sick (which I often was as a child, probably due to the stress of living in an abusive home but at the same time hating school due to being bullied for my ADHD symptoms - stress is bad for asthma, and I'm a severe asthmatic now...but it was worse back then...I also seemed to catch evry cold/flu that was going round, and had millions of ear/throat infections, ending up wiv 2 lots of grommets and having my tonsils removed). Grandma wud sit by me and put cold flannels on my forehead and tell me stories. She'd bring me lemon/honey drinks, hot wheat bags and steam inhalation preparations...she had a real bedside manner. To the rest of my family I was just a pain, Grandma understood me.
Just as Keira does.
Thats why I felt that was the right ring for her.
I wonder if Grandmas smiling down on us now, happy with the choice I've made.
Civil union sure wont b happening overnight - we hav plenty to work thru before we commit ourselves for good, but this is a step forward to basically say 'hey, ur the one I hope to b wiv for the rest of my life!'
We opened a bottle of Bollinger (another symbol - as that was the name of the foal I owned, who died this yr - I believe he wud hav loved Keira too) and toasted to our future - even Mum clinked glasses wiv us and shes anti-anything-but-heterosexual as far as sexual orientation goes; I think she figures if I hav to b gay (well bi technically, but I'm in a homosexual relationship) at least its with a woman shes liked from the beginning!
IM SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!
wat do i mean?
wat did she say 'yes' to?
well, here's the story...
I knew from Day One that Keira was a very special, out-of-the-ordinary (in a gd way
) woman. Before we even met, as gd friends on the internet (originally via PM, then MSN/hotmail and finally by txt/calling each other), I hoped that she and I could end up more than friends oneday - I'd seen pics of her and yes, they made my heart hammer, as she is gorgeous, but looks r the last thing I care about. Keira seemed to share all my values - she is loyal, empathetic, honest (some say addicts rnt honest but I believe there r exceptions to this...I've only ever lied by ommission, and wen I occasionally lied genuine lies it wud bug me till I gave in and confessed...it always struck me that Keira valued honesty highly too, and I was right - once we became a couple, I realised I could trust her with anything; her DOC, like mine, is methamphetamine...yet wen she stays at my house, if shes run out of her bag of P, even if I've gone out for some reason, I know Keira wud never steal any of mine...), u get the picture, evrything I had bn looking for in a partner, Keira had it!I was thrilled wen she asked me out, after wed met a couple of times - in fact, I clearly remember being at a friend, Marie's, house wen she txted to say sumthing along the lines of 'hope this doesnt ruin our friendship, wont b offended if u say no but...I like u as more than a friend - wud u consider going out with me?'
I jumped up and ran round the room screaming 'yayyyy!'
Since then, we find it so easy to b together, and, while we know personal space is wise (no couple shud ever b together 24/7...) we sure miss each other wen were at our homes without the other one there.
Its all so natural - we talk and talk and talk, we have ups and downs, like evry couple, but its a more intimate and special, more REAL relationship I've ever had with anyone...it feels...right.
Everything about her - her silky red-brown hair, her brilliant smile, her long fine fingers, the way she walks, the way she talks, the way she parts her hair so one side hangs over her eye, the way our bodies just seem to...fit together in bed...like we were made for each other, but most of all how compatible we are...that was wat made me decide...we may hav only bn a couple for a short time but weve bn friends much longer, long enough for me to know her inside and out.
Long enough for me to know that I wud luv to spend the rest of my life wiv her.
So now u can guess wat Keira said 'yes' to today. I got down on my knees and took her hand, popped the question and as she whispered 'yes', tears rolled down both of our cheeks. It felt so right, slipping my grandmother's old engagement ring onto her finger...and it fits perfectly - its a simple gold ring wiv a silver centrepiece surrounding a small diamond, simplistic but pretty, and just right for Keira. Also the meaning behind that ring is important: Grandma and Grandpa were a devoted couple till Grandpa died, so maybe that rings a gd luck charm in a way! Also, Grandma and I were very close - she understood me more than anyone in my family, so I felt, and wen she died just after I turned 13, it was like losing a sister. Grandma had ADHD, like me. Like me, her 'blabbering on' irritated the rest of the family, and they basically told her to fuck off a lot wen she was talking 100km/h. She, like me, had low self-esteem, and felt useless, as she never managed to get any school qualifications - and was a poor housewife due to disorganisation. She was patient with me, as a hyperactive, misunderstood, frustrated, confused, bullied/abused and secretly self-loathing, little kid. She was a nurse and she looked after me wen I stayed at home, sick (which I often was as a child, probably due to the stress of living in an abusive home but at the same time hating school due to being bullied for my ADHD symptoms - stress is bad for asthma, and I'm a severe asthmatic now...but it was worse back then...I also seemed to catch evry cold/flu that was going round, and had millions of ear/throat infections, ending up wiv 2 lots of grommets and having my tonsils removed). Grandma wud sit by me and put cold flannels on my forehead and tell me stories. She'd bring me lemon/honey drinks, hot wheat bags and steam inhalation preparations...she had a real bedside manner. To the rest of my family I was just a pain, Grandma understood me.
Just as Keira does.
Thats why I felt that was the right ring for her.
I wonder if Grandmas smiling down on us now, happy with the choice I've made.
Civil union sure wont b happening overnight - we hav plenty to work thru before we commit ourselves for good, but this is a step forward to basically say 'hey, ur the one I hope to b wiv for the rest of my life!'
We opened a bottle of Bollinger (another symbol - as that was the name of the foal I owned, who died this yr - I believe he wud hav loved Keira too) and toasted to our future - even Mum clinked glasses wiv us and shes anti-anything-but-heterosexual as far as sexual orientation goes; I think she figures if I hav to b gay (well bi technically, but I'm in a homosexual relationship) at least its with a woman shes liked from the beginning!
IM SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!
