Its hard to beleive that I dont show up until volume 19 !!! that's like my first lines being near the 1/4 way through mark. i meant to be here many times before but i had to keep the chemical romances satisfied until 2008 when someone/something made me wanna breakaway and clean up. Or maybe this garbage head had tried it all, only to be taken hostage by methadone (260mg/day) There was no place to go but down Suboxone Street and as difficult as it was, I did it, the ladies at detox did it! Little did I know I would be romantically involved with Bupe! Then it's friends joined in making me a more reformed, better informed but neverthe less, dependant on this daily cocktail. It all just doesnt seem to make any sence. I feel like I did before cept this time courtesy of a doc and a shrink, im dating a cocktail that treats me well {even if 1/5 of it gets me to binge every month}and some steps, a Associates Degree in Addiction Counseling, Psychology( that are not put to good use yet} I guess I'm better off....matter of fact I know I am because I feel a warm comforting glow of aBLUELIGHT. yea clean from methadone and crack cocaine and big H little over 2 years. it's time to binge less and help more, yes?8)%)