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Slayer0344 said:
The mind of an addict truly is one of cognitive dissonance and disarray.


Freaking out that I would soon be going into withdrawal I just went crawling around my house looking at any little white dot on the ground hoping it’s Suboxone, I then went down into my garage and did the same and then back upstairs and dug into every single pocket of my clothing hoping id left a pill in there.

Last but not least I pulled my whole car apart including unbolting the seats and found x2 2mg suboxone tablets.

At one point I had so many Suboxone I used to just throw them around my house and car. Doing so has now saved me for a couple of days.

The things we do to stop withdrawal truly is insane.
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They truly are...
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
I’m actually prescribed Xanax too, but a very small amount (as needed) for breakthrough anxiety like when I have to go to doctor appointments or therapy. But I’m prescribed the clonazepam for every day
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Are you also prescribed the clonazepam for anxiety? Here in UK it's only used for seizures but I've always found it a very effective anxiolytic especially for the physical symptoms.
 
BadBoy377 said:
They truly are...
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I was a drunk, I had money issues and would go to the dollar store a buy bottles of generic listening 35% alcohol
70 proof 1/2 liter $1.06 us a bottle, I would usually buy 2 for $2.12 us for a liter
 
Those prices are insanely cheap.

Scotland is rife with alcoholism they have introduced a minimum pricing per unit. Increasing prices of cheapest strongest alcohol 4-5 times.

Some people reckon this has fuelled the increase in use of 'street valium'. Pressed Benzos with varying chemicals in them. Often Bromazolam. Sad.
 
Yea, I was hooked on alcohol, like after only drinking a few times even though bad shit happened to me
I didn't care. I could have 2 beers and stop and be fine. But at a certain point, all bets are off, I drink hard till I was unconscious or blackedout.
BadBoy377 said:
Those prices are insanely cheap.

Scotland is rife with alcoholism they have introduced a minimum pricing per unit. Increasing prices of cheapest strongest alcohol 4-5 times.

Some people reckon this has fuelled the increase in use of 'street valium'. Pressed Benzos with varying chemicals in them. Often Bromazolam. Sad.
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They did shit like that in Russia and crime went up.
 
My mind is was strongly like that of a heroin addict, because a certain level my body would get warm and I was euphoric and cared about nothing and was happy
But it of course leads to more and more. Strangely I would blackouts and usually end up home or when broke drink cheap vodka, malt liquor or if desperate fake listerine.
 
I've always found people taking unknown quantities of benzos to be highly volatile (paradoxically) especially when combined with alcohol and more likely to end up committing crime.

For a little light benzo related relief I recommend this video...

 
To get real booze I only needed$7 and change for a liter of vodka or 3 40's of 8.1% malt liquor, cheap habit.
 
Jnowhere said:
My mind is was strongly like that of a heroin addict, because a certain level my body would get warm and I was euphoric and cared about nothing and was happy
But it of course leads to more and more. Strangely I would blackouts and usually end up home or when broke drink cheap vodka, malt liquor or if desperate fake listerine.
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I understand, mate. I used to drink very heavily too. I haven't stopped completely but it's an occasional thing now and the quantities are much more sensible.
 
BadBoy377 said:
I've always found people taking unknown quantities of benzos to be highly volatile (paradoxically) especially when combined with alcohol and more likely to end up committing crime.

For a little light benzo related relief I recommend this video...

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I never understood that I am mellow, I get 30mg of Valium a day, my mom was psycho on Ativan ( lorazepam) I was chill
 
BadBoy377 said:
I've always found people taking unknown quantities of benzos to be highly volatile (paradoxically) especially when combined with alcohol and more likely to end up committing crime.

For a little light benzo related relief I recommend this video...

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I love that cartoon, I have see no it before and will watch it again soon. I never abuse pills, scared too.
 
Jnowhere said:
I never understood that I am mellow, I get 30mg of Valium a day, my mom was psycho on Ativan ( lorazepam) I was chill
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You don't want to.

I think it's related to disinhibition. Like some people flip out and get aggressive when too drunk.
 
I am terrified, when I was young I could handle alcohol withdrawal but it would probably kill me now. If I could drink
 
I hate to admit it but I wouldn't start shit but I got into fist fights as a grown man with other drunks
 
Yeah gets worse every time doesn't it. Oh the abject terror of lying there shaking as your body pours out days worth of backed up glutamate and your GABAergic system is phoning in sick...

Urgh. Fuck that.
 
The worst is when you are at the peak of withdrawals and can't keep even water down or barely move
But just enough booze and suddenly all that misery is forgotten
 
We all fight as kids it's part of growing up and finding boundaries. I think as a young man it's rare to not get in a fight. Sometimes you have to fight and stand up for yourself etc.
 
I never used heroin but I had a similar response after being sick and getting some alcohol, then more turns to euphoria, it wasn't gradual with me, it was more like crack, hooked almost instantly
 
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