That Midnight Silence

[E-girl]

The silence was never quite so loud
As it was last night
The moment after I told you in a hushed whisper
That i loved you,
The moment after i lifted my head from your stomach,
And the sighs of pleasure became a long deep breath,
And then staring into your eyes,
Listening to the silence get louder and louder
I could feel my heart cracking to the sound of it.
What did it feel like when i turned away,
Buried my face in the velour blue blanket
And cried silently....
I think you knew without asking.
I know you care... don't get me wrong.
But sometimes, this silence gets too loud,
The just knowing is not enough.
The things i need to hear from you
Are locked too deep within you,
Where too many uncaring people once hid them in you,
And threw away the key.
But when you look in my eyes,
Don't you see i'm not them?

I can fall asleep facing this way,
I've gotten good at it.
I'm not letting you go, not just yet.
I still think there's hope that you can let me in
But nights like tonight,
This darkness, this silence, its too much for me
And your silent words are falling on deaf ears.

 

[chrissy]

And your silent words are falling on deaf ears

i can SOOO understand that. i hate it too. unlike u, im letting go i think... we'll see. it hurts so much tho. i love the last line because it rings so so true
take care
chrissy

 

[Raz]

I know you care... don't get me wrong.
But sometimes, this silence gets too loud,
The just knowing is not enough.
The things i need to hear from you
Are locked too deep within you,
Where too many uncaring people once hid them in you,
And threw away the key.
But when you look in my eyes,
Don't you see i'm not them?

That was so eloquent....I think the saddest thing is when you know why someone's damaged and you know it's something that was never their fault, but that time comes when you realise that at some point you really do need to think about your own emotional safety as well...

This was a beautiful piece, E-girl...I feel priveleged to have been able to read it..

 

[grey kat]

this is beautiful. I can sympathize with you, knowing is great, but sometimes you just need more then than knowing, and those "sometimes" sometimes get to your head and make your heart hurt.
you expressed yourself beautifully!

 

[Nik137]

graceful,
your words are simply graceful.

 

[Frosty da snowman]

Every time you post i'm left speechless, you take a moment, and explore it so fully.

 

[neverwas]

graceful,
your words are simply graceful.

couldnt of said it better myself.

 

[Angelight]

^^ i agree

 

[cherub]

Girl i feel for you.
I want to give you a giant hug!!

beautifully written, you one of the people i know that expresses everything out so well that their own hearts just pour out with emotion.