Baron27
Greenlighter
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- Apr 14, 2014
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This is s bit of an odd question but a significant one, nonetheless. Has anyone ever battled an addiction and had a moment when they realized they’ve truly conquered their addiction? I ask this because the first time I got clean, it was such a slow gradual process that I never had any kind of sense that I accomplished or “beat” anything. Just a feeling like “that’s behind me I think, I need to be careful of substances” There was never a day I woke up and felt great or proud that I’d accomplished anything. The idea that I was no longer doing something destructive just diddnt give me any sense of accomplishment. Perhaps I just wasn’t clean long enough or maybe I needed more positive things going on in my life. I’ve just never woke up one day and been like “I did it! I’m clean!” — it’s like some arbitrary expectation that I’m not even sure even exists. Can anyone relate with this? If so, has anyone gained “true fulfillment” simply from abstaining from substances (that were problematic for you, at some point) ?
Note: I’m not trying to say getting clean is not an accomplishment because it is, it’s a massive accomplishment. I’m merely inquiring about your own “sense” of accomplishment.
Note: I’m not trying to say getting clean is not an accomplishment because it is, it’s a massive accomplishment. I’m merely inquiring about your own “sense” of accomplishment.