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farmaz

farmaz

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I had kicked a 10 year heroin habit & had the most crushing case of PAWS (post acute withdrawl syndrome)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-acute-withdrawal_syndrome


I was on the verge of self harm or even worse, I dont want to go into too much info but I just want to say thank you to everyone that informed me PAWs was very normal after using Heroin for so long & that it will end too.

Without this board or the people that took the time to write I really dont think I would be here today.

At anyone thats going through it or trying to kick heroin it does get better I promise you that.

Thank you.
 
farmaz said:
My parents allways drilled into me as a kid manners cost nothing, you say thank you when you had help
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^good parents!;) I am so glad that you are doing OK. That is an awesome accomplishment. I hope that your life gets better and better and feels more and more like your own as you continue forward. You have a lot of experience that others don't have. Never be ashamed of anything in your past; use your knowledge to help others.<3<3
 
Bluelight's Darkside is a fantastic place to be able to get everything off your chest and get advice or just support from a fantastic array of members. You can be completely truthful about your addiction and not be judged like many experience from individuals in their real life. Thats what I really love about this subforum. I can be truthful and not feel like people are going to use it against me or not completely understand. Even from people who are a big part of my life can't fully understand some of problems, so I can't get the same support that I can get here.

I'm glad you feel that bluelight is here for you and has helped you out so you can still remain on this earth.
 
While I do not believe I was part of the group that actually saw and help with your particular case, but I would just like to say that you are very welcome and thank you for taking the time to recognize the members here at Blue and I am assuming more particularly the members here in TDS. First I want to congratulate you on sticking through it, and taking the advise of the people here. This is why we are here. To be fair, I can really only speak for my self but this is why I am here and why I post here, well part of the reason I post here. I am here as with my recovery as an alcoholic it is nice to be around, speak and interact with, and offer my advise to like minded people.

When we are coming off of any addiction the last thing we want to do it try doing it alone. This is a tough time for people, and it's always best to get advise from people who have walked a few miles in your shoes. The other reason that I am here in TDS is to offer help to people through my experiences so that they know that they are not alone, that they don't have to do it alone, and just knowing that I have helped someone, also helps me stay sober.

It's nice that you came in tonight to show your appreciation as many times people can take advantage of the kindness of others. You have validated for me anyway, that our words are not falling on deaf ears, (blind eyes?)

The people here in TDS are amazing, exemplary people and it feels really good to have some one come back and show their appreciation and as addicts,we do noften get signs of appreciation like this.

So, again, while I do not believe that I was one of the people who saw and offered assistance to you specifically, it feels so amazing to hear that we are appreciated. Congrats my friend and I am so happy to hear that you are doing well!

AWESOME and seriously, no, thank you!!

All my best!

Pain
 
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farmaz said:
I had kicked a 10 year heroin habit & had the most crushing case of PAWS (post acute withdrawl syndrome)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-acute-withdrawal_syndrome


I was on the verge of self harm or even worse, I dont want to go into too much info but I just want to say thank you to everyone that informed me PAWs was very normal after using Heroin for so long & that it will end too.

Without this board or the people that took the time to write I really dont think I would be here today.

At anyone thats going through it or trying to kick heroin it does get better I promise you that.

Thank you.
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I had PAWS too.

You will feel better in time. It gets easier as time goes on.
 
PAWS most definitely is a scary prospect. A lot more so than the acute WDs. And I totally understand how as one becomes an addict PAWS isn't something your aware of. I'll admit I didn't completely know what PAWS was until like a year and half ago, and this was years and years after I've been using drugs regularly. Capt is right though, it will go away, and as time goes on it does seem a lot easier. Keeping yourself busy, and life moving will decrease the time in PAWS till one day its something you just forget about. I'm hoping I'll able to get past PAWS relatively fast and painlessly when I hopefully get off all opioids. Best of luck to you
 
thank you to everyone that has commented, I have taken note of your posts.

i am far better today than I was, I found the depression far worse than anything I had ever gone through after kicking the gear. Some days I would just cry in bed thinking about all types of terrible things.

Heroin may be 1 of my favourite drugs but when it has got you, it is no joke :(
 
farmaz said:
I found the depression far worse than anything I had ever gone through after kicking the gear. Some days I would just cry in bed thinking about all types of terrible things.
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While I have never done heroin nor any other drug similar, I can tell you that one thing that most addicts all share is severe depression. For some that is the reason that they started their addiction in the first place, to self medicate and hide from their depression. Others will find depression when they first become sober. After all becoming clean for most feels like they have just lost their best friend. Depression seems to come with the territory. When I first became sober, I fought terrible depression and anxiety. I felt like I lost a piece of myself, but as time went on, I felt less and less depressed, though I often think that much of it had to do with that little pill they call an anti-depressant, for me I call it a god send, though many others can get through it with out intervention. Either way it does get easier as time goes by. Keep your mind occupied and it will leave little room for the nasty depression to creep in. For me, night time was the worst as I worked all day then at night I would hide inside a bottle. Once the bottle was gone, I had no where to hide at night and my nights were terrifying. Whether on an anti-depressant or not, I can promise you that with time, the depression will slowly disappear. As they say, time heals all wounds. I truly believe in most cases this is 100% true. Idle hands are the devils playground. While I am not one for cliché's, there are times where they are most appropriate and I believe that this is one of those times.

Well as I said the other night, I am very happy for you that you have put the past with your addiction behind you, you have done the easy part, the hard part lies ahead, staying clean. I feel that you will do quite well and I wish you all the luck in the world. All my best Farmaz!
 
I agree with you OP, this forum has given me a breath of fresh air, so to speak. The amount of people that truly do care if astonishing and I find myself really invested in the people I meet here and would do anything to help them, and feel that they would do the same for me.

This means more than words can express when nearly everyone I know in my real life has let me down or abandoned me, save for a few very close friends and my partner.

I'd also like to say a big 'Thank you!' to Bluelight and TDS specifically. Love you guys.

-OCD
 
I am so happy to be part of a forum that has such a sense of family and togetherness. This was exactly what I needed and I am so thankful it came to me at the right time in my life. I was welcomed with open arms at a very vulnerable point and it gave me a huge sense of acceptance and confidence. I'm happy to see other people benefitting from it as well. It is a lifesaver to some people and can really help turn things around.

<3<3 You guys are all so wonderful. The responses people give to almost complete strangers and the amount of sincerity and love behind their words is absolutely amazing!
 
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