Cocaine Terrible experience, please help!

[Dragonkiller]

Okay so I started doing coke maybe about three weeks ago.

During that time, I've done 3 or 4 grams, spread out quite evenly.

This past week, I did it maybe once during the week. The only real noticeable effect I feel on it is that it makes me super talkative, e.g. I would literally call up everyone on my phone and talk to them. Effect lasts about 30 mins. But what I find surprising is that it is very easy for me to sleep afterwards; I've heard it should be almost impossible. It also gives me diarrhea (sorry for being so descriptive).

And for the past week, I have been constantly tired, I mean literally tired all the time and sleeping whenever I get the opportunity to do so. It's not like I'm exerting extra physical effort (e.g. I'm not going clubbing etc) so why does it make me so tired?

I also don't trust the dealer and of course he could be mixing it with something else, or it could actually be something else (speed)?

Anyway so this weekend, I had it both on Friday night and Saturday night, I also drank alcohol. Today (I'm feeling slightly better now) but I was so, so emotional. Crying for most of the day and feeling major depression.

I'm not touching this stuff again (but is that safe to quit cold-turkey?) Am I addicted? (I don't crave it, I mean I have access to it but am choosing not to take it). And is it possible to become addicted in such a short time and with that quantity.

The way I'm feeling is the worst feeling I've ever had in my life - I'm also very anxious, agitated and a little shaky. I feel out of it (cloudy and still a bit drunk, but I suppose that could be the alcohol) and have no motivation.

Please, please help.

 

[madog11]

First i think your pshycing yourself out a bit so take a few deep breaths and calm down.

I'll answer your questions working my way down.

The toilet problems probably mean it's being cut with a laxative. The sleep is totally normal, snorting cocaine the effects wear off quite quickly once you stop doing it. I can sleep just fine after doing it.

The tiredness could be psychological or maybe you're getting less sleep than usual.

If it was being mixed with speed you would get no sleep, i know this because i've had coke cut with speed, i've also had speed on it's own can't sleep AT ALL for hours.

The emotions are the hangover and probably you got less sleep than usual so a bit of sleep deprivation i get that way too.

You aren't addicted, i think by your anxiety after doing it drugs aren't a good idea for you as you are already working yourself up about addiction after using a couple of times. Using drugs seems to me will just mess with your head if it is already causing you this much anxiety.

And yes quitting cold turkey it is fine. It won't cause you ANY ill effect. However if you think it will then that can cause physical effects (look up conversion disorder).

Try and meditate or go to sleep or something, its part hangover and part all in your head. Sorry if this is bit blunt but its all psychological.

 

[Dragonkiller]

Thanks so much for your reply.

 

[madog11]

Feel free to message me if you need any further help or wanna talk.

 

[Znegative]

it is not unsafe to quit cocaine cold turkey, as it does not cause physical dependance like opiates, benzo's, barbiturate's and alchohol do. That being said, you will experience a psychological withdrawal, which is exactly what you mentioned above. Extreme emotional sensitivity, lethargy and depression. Luckily you have not been using to heavily or too long, so you don't have to worry too much about Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome, which can last for months and sometimes years.

I would expect you to stabalize within a week quite honestly. Sometimes it helps to know that they crazy emotional up's and down's as well as drug cravings are actually the result of drug use. At least for myself, the knowledge makes me feel less insane.

And on an end note, it is unlikely that your cocaine is mixed with amphetamines or Methamphetamine, as those drugs are desirable by themselves, and in certain states, more expensive than cocaine is by weight. If any psychoactive chemicals were used, I would imagine it to be more along the lines of methylphenidate (ritalin), which mimics the cocaine high. Unfortunately, something like 90% of the cocaine available today is cut with de-worming chemicals, which are very harmful to the body, which is just one more incentive to put down this drug.

 

[paper planes]

ya like everybody esle said your fine and probably just making it worse by stressing about it.. have you had a good meal recently or a hot shower, try to relax and get control over your mind cuz you'll be fine

 

[Dragonkiller]

Thanks for all your replies, that's reassuring. I'm also finding it quite hard to concentrate, am very forgetful and can't even follow conversations without getting distracted. I feel very dumb.

I'm hoping this will go away too. Problem is I have a hard week ahead, and added to the lethargy (I can't even be bothered to have a shower!) and depression (I would say I'm mildly depressed naturally at the moment anyway because of a few things goign on in my life, which might actually explain why I tried cocaine in the first place).

I should probably add that I had previously been doing valium for about a month but stopped soon after starting the cocaine. I don't know if there are any interactions. But I know the lethargy isn't because of the valium because that on it's on never made me as tired as the cocaine has. I literally wanted to sleep all the time last week.

 

[Znegative]

you should never abruptly discontinue the use of benzodiazepines, or similair drugs (z-drugs, barbiturates, chronic alchohol use). Withdrawal can result in seizures and death, and dependency can form in as little as two weeks of daily dosing.