Long, looooong time lurker here but this is probably my first post. I apologise if this is in the wrong thread, please let me know and move to proper place if I'm wrong. Thanks.
Well, about 3 years ago my ex shot me up with dope for the first time. I used on and off without issue for about a year, kicked it for a couple months, then I got a massive inheritance 2 summers ago. My girl convinced me to let her try after weeks of resistance, and I finally gave in. Fast forward to now, I have completely fucked my life up. Blew through all my cash, alienated 90% of my friends, and I'm just in the deepest depression of my life.
3 months ago I was still doing a full gram 1/2 - 2 gs a day, sometimes with benzos or ghb. After running out of cash, my dose has rapidly decreased from 6-7 .25s a day to a pathetic .2-.3 for the day (if I'm lucky), usually spread out to 2-3 .1s a day. Ive been miserable for weeks but I'm starting to feel better (slightly) as each day goes by. But I've hit a point where I really don't think I can taper any lower. I want (need) to kick this shit so god damn bad, before I'm evicted and homeless and lose everything.
My main question is, what is the next step? I /will not/ kick cold turkey, that is not an option. I do not have money for rehab. There's a clinic up the road but from experience with my ex, they love putting people on methadone and never decreasing their dose. I'd like to induct on subs, but I'm terrified of PWD. I'm aware of the chart but I don't know, man. Should I go to the clinic and see if they can induct me on bupe? Should I keep weening off h, even though it seems impossible?
Me and my girl are both trying to kick this at the same time, were getting hostile and fighting, and we never do. But we really love each other and don't wanna get separated, or worse, have her parents find out, which will fuck everything up to hell (and it's becoming inevitable)
What should I do? What is truly the easiest way to ween your body from this shit? Is the process going to be any easier with the minute amount were doing now?
I haven't actually gotten "high" off dope in at least 6 months. I don't feel as though the yearn to get fucked up will be a big deal (because I don't), but I am a total pussy when it comes to WDs.
Any advice or ideas? Thank you, and thank you all for years of harm reduction, safety, and knowledge.
Well, about 3 years ago my ex shot me up with dope for the first time. I used on and off without issue for about a year, kicked it for a couple months, then I got a massive inheritance 2 summers ago. My girl convinced me to let her try after weeks of resistance, and I finally gave in. Fast forward to now, I have completely fucked my life up. Blew through all my cash, alienated 90% of my friends, and I'm just in the deepest depression of my life.
3 months ago I was still doing a full gram 1/2 - 2 gs a day, sometimes with benzos or ghb. After running out of cash, my dose has rapidly decreased from 6-7 .25s a day to a pathetic .2-.3 for the day (if I'm lucky), usually spread out to 2-3 .1s a day. Ive been miserable for weeks but I'm starting to feel better (slightly) as each day goes by. But I've hit a point where I really don't think I can taper any lower. I want (need) to kick this shit so god damn bad, before I'm evicted and homeless and lose everything.
My main question is, what is the next step? I /will not/ kick cold turkey, that is not an option. I do not have money for rehab. There's a clinic up the road but from experience with my ex, they love putting people on methadone and never decreasing their dose. I'd like to induct on subs, but I'm terrified of PWD. I'm aware of the chart but I don't know, man. Should I go to the clinic and see if they can induct me on bupe? Should I keep weening off h, even though it seems impossible?
Me and my girl are both trying to kick this at the same time, were getting hostile and fighting, and we never do. But we really love each other and don't wanna get separated, or worse, have her parents find out, which will fuck everything up to hell (and it's becoming inevitable)
What should I do? What is truly the easiest way to ween your body from this shit? Is the process going to be any easier with the minute amount were doing now?
I haven't actually gotten "high" off dope in at least 6 months. I don't feel as though the yearn to get fucked up will be a big deal (because I don't), but I am a total pussy when it comes to WDs.
Any advice or ideas? Thank you, and thank you all for years of harm reduction, safety, and knowledge.