why are fire engines red?
I read your post up until about here, at first. I was busy. A little later, I was forced to stop my car to let a red fire engine pass through the intersection. It had a big '23' on it. There weren't any others that day. None like this, in some time. To say I hadn't seen one in a long time would be a lie, but to say I hadn't seen one like this, crossing through making me stop in some time, '23', and me following after it passes/going the same way a ways, this is accurate. The engine had certain attention.
I had just got off the interstate. I was reflecting in the seconds leading up to hearing the sirens about an image I saw, of the female's, who had caught my eye years ago and has stayed in my consciousness, to be aware of... About how this image of hers looks to have a letter-symbol, and I just noticed it when I found things in numbers ("4" in "23"...). And about how I connected her with '227' in this timing, around 2/27, when 227 was called into scrutiny, my "connecting" with it (understandably, perhaps, in the context, it wasn't understood). How I felt her-- or something familiar to what I thought of her, prior to looking, was reflected on.
Perhaps I just can't share everything I want to, but I understand how some people's stuff may be read as such. How mine may at times to some. But again... It is probably from a lack of clear explanation, lacking all context and thought/feeling, and/or an audience that isn't really willing to work to understand anything, or be open, or can't... But I can't blame others for not getting it. Like I've said before... Sometimes I don't get it the same, and it is my experience. Validation of others is nice, but I get enough, through them, and my life. And sometimes people do get it... some.
Often the things like this 227 around talk of 227, and the 23 fire engine around memory of reading up to about that in your response's, that being my previous "fire engine" conscious noticing, I don't think what I do later, then. I take note of it, for the moment, because I'm on task-- I notice it and notice my experience... But I'm experiencing. But later, in review, in testing, I put it together certainly, and I realize that you mentioned and it was about all I noticed, "fire engine", then later I heard then saw this fire engine 23, with thought of this person in time, and a thought of a symbol(s)/letter.
Oh. Her hair is red. :D
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On 23 and that intersection, a week ago or so I saw an ambulance from the same station, '23'... it must be right there with my exit onto 31, going to 135 (just saying).
That night I had another on my mind. I had just stopped with another who I had sex with for two nights... And had this feeling of realization that I was in love with someone else, and I wasn't being faithful to myself. Not that I am hard on myself about it. I just notice. But I saw 23 on an ambulance that was parked there in the lot by the road at the intersection, and made my turn. I then noticed I was behind a car with the number 159 on the plate, which is a number of her name, which I associate with it. Letters were something that I forget. But I remember 159. As it happened also with my thoughts of one, I can see a resonance in these two experiences. These two have confused me. Love has confused me, in ways. I've gone a bit mad.
This one also has red hair...