I am so depressed I can not deal with it. I've been through withdrawals many times yet this time it is that entity with no name. The one that creeps into your brain and shuts it down. Not the beautiful receding factions of life fading away in an opium haze but the nothingness that seems to pervade sobriety. I have exchanged one drug for another as I am now labeled a drug seeker in Korea. I can not sleep and awake in a pool of liquid that has seeped out of my pores throughout the night. I take everything in the cabinet for relief and I get none. The alcohol numbs things, but only for a minute, so...it continues. I have never been happy except on drugs. I fucking hate this life.
