Turnover rate being what it is the vast majority of you probably haven't got a fucking clue who I even am. There fore this is mostly for Old Skool crew, though hopefully there's a message there for everyone.
Sorry I been away for so long. As many of you remember I crashed and burned mega mega hard and suffered some obvious declines to be mental health from my insane stimulant use. i have no idea whether I will be able to avoid the same eventual fate this time, however, the truth is that drugs are so special to me in my life that I had to give it all atleast one last try. I'm sorry i never dropped in to say hello to anyone but when you're trying to stay clean it is very hard to interact with others who are sill using and maybe seem to be getting away with it.
Over the last ten years or so I have come to realise that there is a new breed of internet junky emerging. The papers and the news tell us that having to be on a methadone script sleeping on a park bench are what defines a junky. I didn't seem to fit this criteria and so, despite all the paranoia, mania, weightloss, payday loans and , general basket caseness, I still couldn't see the wood for the trees.
Anyway, I shall try an take a more measured approach this time, with many month long breaks thrown in. Hopefully I can crack it. If not then I'll either go back to abstinence or go back to being a junky again i suppose. I had some of the best and most profound experiences of my live using drugs and nothing can take that away. On some level they probably always will be my one true love.
Big shout out to Shambles, Si Dread, Treacle, Sonoluminescence, Foolsgold, Stonehappy Monday, Coltdan, Mydrugbuddy, Ben So Furry, Transform, Backroll and EvilEive, Marmelaide, Sammy G, ScotchMist and Snolly
Last but by no means least: Knock RIP
Dont' thing I haven't missed you'll while i been gone. Swarm x
Sorry I been away for so long. As many of you remember I crashed and burned mega mega hard and suffered some obvious declines to be mental health from my insane stimulant use. i have no idea whether I will be able to avoid the same eventual fate this time, however, the truth is that drugs are so special to me in my life that I had to give it all atleast one last try. I'm sorry i never dropped in to say hello to anyone but when you're trying to stay clean it is very hard to interact with others who are sill using and maybe seem to be getting away with it.
Over the last ten years or so I have come to realise that there is a new breed of internet junky emerging. The papers and the news tell us that having to be on a methadone script sleeping on a park bench are what defines a junky. I didn't seem to fit this criteria and so, despite all the paranoia, mania, weightloss, payday loans and , general basket caseness, I still couldn't see the wood for the trees.
Anyway, I shall try an take a more measured approach this time, with many month long breaks thrown in. Hopefully I can crack it. If not then I'll either go back to abstinence or go back to being a junky again i suppose. I had some of the best and most profound experiences of my live using drugs and nothing can take that away. On some level they probably always will be my one true love.
Big shout out to Shambles, Si Dread, Treacle, Sonoluminescence, Foolsgold, Stonehappy Monday, Coltdan, Mydrugbuddy, Ben So Furry, Transform, Backroll and EvilEive, Marmelaide, Sammy G, ScotchMist and Snolly
Last but by no means least: Knock RIP
Dont' thing I haven't missed you'll while i been gone. Swarm x
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