sunday night lament

[Shuddr2Think]

sometimes it amazes me
how much i can hold in
before i break
a simple lyric
a look from you
a silence i can't ignore any
longer
and then i break.
these words repeated over again
a mantra of sorts
im okay im okay im okay
but im not.
the inevitable truth is that
i am alone.
with
out
you
i am underwater
struggling to maintain
and regain
my life
waiting for the moment when
i break the surface
and you are there
with open arms and
a smile just for me
to tell me
you have been waiting all along.
because
im so tired of being
selfless
composed
emotionless
i want to scream
break things
break someone else's
heart
just for a change of pace
perhaps i need a vacation
to forget about all of this.
to forget about myself
to know me again
instead of clawing
onto
you
to make
me feel real.

 

[up all night]

I just don't have anything to say to your posts anymore. They never fail to touch me. Never fail to make me stop and think and shake my head at how awesome they are.

perhaps i need a vacation
to forget about all of this.
to forget about myself
to know me again
instead of clawing
onto
you
to make
me feel real.
You are so much a part of what makes me adore this forum.

 

[Sara Tonin]

This is amazing...