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Bluelighter
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- Oct 17, 2014
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Hi
No, im not trying to feel something out of the bupe at all, I gave up on that years ago! I used to muck around with it and snorted it, tried to potentiate, would go days without just to feel something, and like I said above, the reason i first tried plugging, always of course thought about IVing but held back. I've never felt anything from it woule be a bit silly for me to try now. As I said above, when j first tried other methods, over 2 years ago, that's what I was trying to do, but not now, there's no point and im not chasing anything from it now at all. And I'll never touch a needle again. My first experience getting clean was when I was 21 (now 38 ) and that was the last time i injected and I still think about it. But I won't go down that track ahain, I have too much to lose.
I am reducing my dose. Previous to my relapse I had over 14 years clean and sober (completely abstinent) in which time I did NA meetings nearly everyday, other therapy, got married and had 5 children, ran a business and volunteered as well......and my relapse after all that time due to PTSD nearly cost me the world - my precious children - I tear up just writing those words ?. I have nothing to gain with dishonesty?
I am back in therapy (actually really never left) and have several people I support on a personal level. I also volunteer for street vans, feeding, talking, whatever people need, plus im a busy mum with 5 amazingly talented children who need my personal, emotional, physical, spiritual, etc support every moment of every day.
I've also said above i really want to reduce my dose and that was the point of this thread. It starts today actually But I also metabolise bupe differently and my dose ended up so high because of this, so I am worried but I doubt I will feel any different from this drop.
Gotta go, school drop off time
No, im not trying to feel something out of the bupe at all, I gave up on that years ago! I used to muck around with it and snorted it, tried to potentiate, would go days without just to feel something, and like I said above, the reason i first tried plugging, always of course thought about IVing but held back. I've never felt anything from it woule be a bit silly for me to try now. As I said above, when j first tried other methods, over 2 years ago, that's what I was trying to do, but not now, there's no point and im not chasing anything from it now at all. And I'll never touch a needle again. My first experience getting clean was when I was 21 (now 38 ) and that was the last time i injected and I still think about it. But I won't go down that track ahain, I have too much to lose.
I am reducing my dose. Previous to my relapse I had over 14 years clean and sober (completely abstinent) in which time I did NA meetings nearly everyday, other therapy, got married and had 5 children, ran a business and volunteered as well......and my relapse after all that time due to PTSD nearly cost me the world - my precious children - I tear up just writing those words ?. I have nothing to gain with dishonesty?
I am back in therapy (actually really never left) and have several people I support on a personal level. I also volunteer for street vans, feeding, talking, whatever people need, plus im a busy mum with 5 amazingly talented children who need my personal, emotional, physical, spiritual, etc support every moment of every day.
I've also said above i really want to reduce my dose and that was the point of this thread. It starts today actually But I also metabolise bupe differently and my dose ended up so high because of this, so I am worried but I doubt I will feel any different from this drop.
Gotta go, school drop off time
