I'm going to be kicking a long Suboxone habit, 5 years at 16mg a day. I switched jobs, I used my stockpile while waiting for the health insurance to kick in at my new job. So now that I have health insurance again, it turns out all the doctors who can prescribe Suboxone within a 100 mile radius are at their 100 patient limit and those that even pretend to have a waiting list say its going to be a 3-4 month wait at least. Didn't really think it was going to be such a hassle to get back on it, it was so easy to get on it 5 years ago, now everybody is all booked and at their prescribing limit.
So after some futile attempts at booking an appointment I figured I had to start tapering, so instead of putting it under my tongue I started snorting it. It felt more intense when snorted, I mean I didn't feel anything after all those years when putting 16mg under the tongue, but snorting 2mg gave me a little opiate feeling. So I thought there was a huge difference in bioavailability between the 2 routes of administration but apparently the the difference in BA between the 2 ROA's is minimal. Which would explain why I have been so damn depressed and unmotivated ever since I started the taper, but since I thought I was getting the same amount of Suboxone in my brain every day I never pinned it on Sub w/d and so it was all so bearable as a result because I just thought it was regular depression and there was nothing I could do about it. However, going below 2mg, now that I'm aware that I'm not actually getting more due to a change in ROA, it has been difficult, but I stabilized on 1mg intranasal for 2 months and got down to 500mcg for the last week. I'm wondering how bad the w/d will be?
I'm almost afraid to ask. I kicked a mild to moderate IV heroin habit (3 bags a day, for 6 months solid, chipping before that) when I was 23. I kicked in a homeless shelter, since that was 10 years ago the pain of the experience isn't quite so fresh in my mind, but they would kick us out at 6 am everyday and it was November in Upstate New York, I'd have to walk around the city going through dope w/d which I think made it get over with quicker rather than being in a familiar bed. Don't get me wrong, it was a nightmare, no sleep for 4-5 days, my lower back had that distinctive dope-kick pain, everything hurt including my hair, the awful diarrhea, and the hyper-emotional states were nothing I'm looking forward to revisiting. But I didn't vomit or feel all that nauseous, no appetite, but not vomiting, and I didn't have RLS at all, I did yawn all the time the first couple days, and obviously chills and goosebumps, and it was really easy to ejaculate although it didn't feel good like a normal orgasm, it almost felt like I could feel all the machinations of my prostate emptying, every spasm that worked the semen out I could feel rather than a normal orgasm where you just lose yourself in the pleasure, this was almost like my body going, "yeah, whatever, squirt, squirt" But afterwards I did get a few minutes of lower back relief, but still no where near anything that resembled sleepiness. That's always fun, laying in a load of your own protein in a bunk bed in a homeless shelter in Utica, NY whilst going through heroin withdrawal, fun times, fun times. But hey, at least I had the top bunk, you know what they say, when life hands you lemons ...
So I since I never had RLS or vomiting does anyone here think I would coming off of 1mg of Suboxone? Why do people say Suboxone is the worst? I can't count how many times I hear people say, "Oh thats the worst to withdraw from." after I tell them what I'm about to do and so I say, "Why don't I do heroin again and then kick that instead." to which they invariably reply, "Oh no, don't do that." So none of this makes sense, if Suboxone is the worst opiate to withdraw from then why not switch to another opiate and kick that? It seems in my travels online over the last few weeks there is really only one constant, that whatever a person is withdrawing from now or immediately in the past was/is the worst. Thats really the only thing that is reliably the same, other than that everybody will tell you something different in regards to what they think will help and what they think will happen and all that.
But oh well, you all know how it is, when kicking all you want to do is talk about your symptoms and dwell and ruminate on them and think about how good a blast of smack would be, or whatever your DOC was. So in those respects we're all the same. And I'm sure I'll kick up some discord amongst you all on here, but can anyone tell me about what to expect from the w/d from 1mg of Subs after 5 years and if it would be better to switch to a short acting opiate and kick? I'm sure I'll get a thousand different answers, but oh well, its all I can think about or talk about as I start going through this so even if your responses don't help, they probably will.