Ok. Well I'm new to this. But here goes. I'm 29yrs old. Been struggling with back.pain for a few years now. Not gonna list all my issues but for a 29 yr old, I'm pretty messed up. Anyways. I've been prescribed opiates for a few years now and progressed to bigger and more mgs etc. You all know the story. I'm prescribed the butrans patch 10mcg along with 10mg percs 5 a day. I wake up every day feeling like crap, like in a withdrawal state until my first dose. And all day I'm constantly trying to feel better, happier and motivated and free of pain. And end up taking way to many percs. Then I'm.out after 2 weeks. No matter what I do I end up short for the month. I want so bad to be at a point where I only take them when I hurt. But I just fail like a POS every month. Then as soon as I realize how short I am on my meds for the month, and then I become that much more miserable and dread running out. I hate it. And feel so.shitty. my wife is just about fed up, when I'm out I'm useless. Idk what to do anymore. I know everyone is gonna say its times to quit. But what am I gonna do for pain? I'm a master technician for GM. So I'm.busting knuckles all day and my job sucks when I hurt. I used to be happy 90% of the time. Always wanted to do shit. Now I just mope around feeling like ass constantly Trying to feel better. It's like evey 30 minutes I wanna take another pill. What am I gonna do? I know this is a bad road. I know the risks. But I need some sort of pain relief on the days when I can't take it, but I always end up trying to feel good to. I need help.
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Struggling with pain and pills.
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weekendwarrior11
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Well you have the pain inevitably. And you take your pills way too fast. One thing I instantly thought of was take your scripts and give them to your wife. Mind you she is still willing to help, buy a lock box that only she knows the combo to. Then have her give you 5 perks and what ever else for the day.
Granted it's still going to suck because you can't take 10 in a day, but you will be able to atleast work toward lowering your daily dosage and making it through the month.
This doesn't really fix any problem except stretching your script out throughout the month, but once you get that down then you can start working towards taking less each day.
Just some food for thought.
Granted it's still going to suck because you can't take 10 in a day, but you will be able to atleast work toward lowering your daily dosage and making it through the month.
This doesn't really fix any problem except stretching your script out throughout the month, but once you get that down then you can start working towards taking less each day.
Just some food for thought.
herbavore
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^That's a good plan but I would add that it is important for both you and your wife to understand addiction regarding pain meds for chronic pain--it's inevitable! You did not cause this and she should not blame you for it. Have you gone to a pain clinic to learn other ways to deal with the pain as well (not instead of but in addition to meds)?
I am wondering if there are any retraining programs for employment that could help you to transition to something that is not so hard on your body?
Here is something else to consider: there is your physical pain and then there is emotional pain. Once you start using the pills for your emotional pain, that is where you get in trouble. Look honestly at your life. What is fulfilling and what is undermining? Where do you experience pleasure and what cause you to be uncomfortable, what cause pain? Maybe your relationship to yourself needs work. Maybe your relationship to your spouse or children if you have them. It takes courage to find the life you really want rather than the one that is prescribed by outside pressures but it's well worth the effort. We only get one!
I am wondering if there are any retraining programs for employment that could help you to transition to something that is not so hard on your body?
Here is something else to consider: there is your physical pain and then there is emotional pain. Once you start using the pills for your emotional pain, that is where you get in trouble. Look honestly at your life. What is fulfilling and what is undermining? Where do you experience pleasure and what cause you to be uncomfortable, what cause pain? Maybe your relationship to yourself needs work. Maybe your relationship to your spouse or children if you have them. It takes courage to find the life you really want rather than the one that is prescribed by outside pressures but it's well worth the effort. We only get one!
I've been thru pain management. Epidural injections. Physical therapy. Decompression. Chiro. Massage. Acue punture. You name it. Except surgury. I understand addiction. Grew up around it and I read alot about all this. As far as my job, its almost impossible at this point to try and start new. As an automotive tech I have tens of thousands invested. Not trying to shoot down what your saying. I appreciate all the help I can get. As far as a lock box. I tried that. I ended up picking the lock. It's unreal. You'd think I would not screw myself over for the.month but I always do. And now I only have a few days worth left. And two and a half.weeks till Dr. Again. It's stupid. But, I am going to buy an electronic safe that takes a code for my wife. Because she has been holding my meds fo months now. I always end up looking for them or coming across them and next thing I know. She's says this is your last dose for the month. Then life us over untill I find something or.make it to the doc. I feel so pathetic. I just want my life back. I want to be happy and not schedule my life around my meds.