Street Lyfe

[brimz]

But a niggas gotta do what a niggas gotta do

oh please !!

 

[PeacePipeChief]

yeah man i thought it was hectic to be a hard cunt , ended out kicked out at 15 an a diagnosed alcoholic already ... then by 16 a full blown meth addict , its fucking ridiculous and an insane lifestyle and will suck everything youve got from you . i wish i could go back tbh but i gotta say i had my fun . im still stuck in thug mentality even though ive moved states , still getting in fights and shit still drinking and smoking/weed and shit , chowing down codeine . but its better than meth . we can all get better one day man , it just takes time .

 

[deroxor]

Soo is there honor among thieves?? No never, i learned that.

turns out that the bail our family out was just a set up, as i assumed, from the beginning. Further backing up my choice to not trust anyone.

But sometimes, opportunities will arise when another one fails.

I got a job offer, moving outta my town and into the big city. Its a dangerous and risky gig, But it presents big possible gains if executed properly.

i dont really wanna say too much, but its a more organized, and wealthy spot in the D*** trade then im originally used to. Where im going though, there is deaths and shootings every day that happen in this industry, With the only thing i really got going for me over there, is nobody knows of me, and i will be invisible under everyones radar (at first)

thats not to say that could also be a disadvantage, that nobody knows me, soo nobody will know if i go missing.

But ugh, my family they crying and struggling with financial debt, this town is driving me nutz, and even though im throwing my self into this scene again, I have actually seen with my own eyes the benefits of one being successful in the industry (from the person bringing me in)

Before i woulda done this to make a name for myself, to get my Gangster on you know???? But now since ive already lived a struggling "gang" life this presents itself as a opportunity to change my life.

This isnt a blood in blood out situation either, I basically fuffill a time period of 4 months, work shifts daily, and get 2 days off a week like any other job. Id be in a new area, facing new challenges, and meeting new people

some close people of mine think its a bad idea, but they lived a more sheltered life then i have, soo i can see how they would think so.

And this isnt a confession, this is my diary, my notes left behind, incase i dont make it back (who really knows)

Its funny, because i notice how up untill now, i havent even worried or thought about the chance of getting incarcerated........ But in my life, the police are the last thing i worry about, and as shitty as that is, i got bigger badder people to worry about.

im going to just have faith, and let things work itself out, not fuck up, and keep my mouth shut and listen.

if things go as great as they should, i will keep you all posted. But if things go bad, i might not be around to post at all.

Thanks for listening, and your inputs BL'ers, ive allways loved this community, too bad this wasnt a place i could move into and live the rest of my days throught.

 

[bluedom]

I am sure you will get some really good advice about this, perhaps from others who've gone through this, but all I will say is that you need to walk the path you've decided to embark upon and see for yourself. I wish you the best man.

Your last comment is illuminative. I think many people who've gotten over their issues (in my case, my addiction) end up on here to "live their (druggie) lives out". Some of it involves providing advice. Some of it is perhaps living vicariously. Either way, it has helped me stay sober. Likewise I hope the postings keep you grounded.

Soo is there honor among thieves?? No never, i learned that.

turns out that the bail our family out was just a set up, as i assumed, from the beginning. Further backing up my choice to not trust anyone.

But sometimes, opportunities will arise when another one fails.

I got a job offer, moving outta my town and into the big city. Its a dangerous and risky gig, But it presents big possible gains if executed properly.

i dont really wanna say too much, but its a more organized, and wealthy spot in the D*** trade then im originally used to. Where im going though, there is deaths and shootings every day that happen in this industry, With the only thing i really got going for me over there, is nobody knows of me, and i will be invisible under everyones radar (at first)

thats not to say that could also be a disadvantage, that nobody knows me, soo nobody will know if i go missing.

But ugh, my family they crying and struggling with financial debt, this town is driving me nutz, and even though im throwing my self into this scene again, I have actually seen with my own eyes the benefits of one being successful in the industry (from the person bringing me in)

Before i woulda done this to make a name for myself, to get my Gangster on you know???? But now since ive already lived a struggling "gang" life this presents itself as a opportunity to change my life.

This isnt a blood in blood out situation either, I basically fuffill a time period of 4 months, work shifts daily, and get 2 days off a week like any other job. Id be in a new area, facing new challenges, and meeting new people

some close people of mine think its a bad idea, but they lived a more sheltered life then i have, soo i can see how they would think so.

And this isnt a confession, this is my diary, my notes left behind, incase i dont make it back (who really knows)

Its funny, because i notice how up untill now, i havent even worried or thought about the chance of getting incarcerated........ But in my life, the police are the last thing i worry about, and as shitty as that is, i got bigger badder people to worry about.

im going to just have faith, and let things work itself out, not fuck up, and keep my mouth shut and listen.

if things go as great as they should, i will keep you all posted. But if things go bad, i might not be around to post at all.

Thanks for listening, and your inputs BL'ers, ive allways loved this community, too bad this wasnt a place i could move into and live the rest of my days throught.