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Well I can't write a proper blog because I only have my smartphone and its so hard to type with. I feel so bad today. I am struggling to get through my days at work. I am so poor that I am eating cereal and water until I get paid. I can't seem to cope with anything and its really affecting me. I just feel so angry and sad with no real reason. I am used to depressive episodes but normally I can pull myself out of them. I can't seem to do that today. I feel lonely, and ugly and selfish and I don't know why and I don't know how to fix it.