still stuck in the same pattern

The title says it all. I feel so defeated all the time. I've felt this way all my adult life. I have hated anger and conflict since I was little. I always tried to avoid it all costs even to my own detriment. I just feel like I'm stuck in a cycle of bad feelings and no motivation to get better. Each one compounding on the other. I try to take it a day at a time and tell myself that one bad day doesn't mean all is lost. But lately all those bad days have been building into bad weeks and bad months.

I won't give up hope

"Hope is the only thing stronger than fear"

To be continued............
 
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