You may have read one of my many previous threads related to this. Around 2 months ago, I really overdid it with Meth, and one big dose had me up for around 5 days - and it all started after an all-nighter on Acid. Without getting too much into it, I was paralized for about 2 and 1/2 to 3 of those days, and literally unable to leave the bed without my friends carrying me. I ended up going to the hospital on the 5th night, and was able to get some sleep thanks to some Diazepam I was given.
For almost 2 weeks after, I was taking a borrowed/given source of Oxazepam (Murelax), which gave me decent relief from my constant anxiety symptoms. Stomach twitches, extremely tight chest, unable to sleep, lethargy (but not when on medication, although that seems counter-productive) are among the more prominent.
After a month or so, I thought my body had recovered, and was getting convinced I was back to normal, and okay. I had been eating healthy, and drinking plenty of water, and had been trying to gain back the 5kg+ I lost in the incident. I was virtually completely drug free during that time, as well. I shortly realized this was not the case, and just like during the immediate weeks after the incident, I realized I could not smoke Marijuana anymore, without intense panic attacks that is.
I had one exceptionally bad experience, after I thought I was "all good", and I smoked 2 cones/bowl's of quality Marijuana, and ended up shaking uncontrollably, getting strong pains in my chest, which at the time was very tight as well. To top it off, my head felt like it was going to cave in on itself and explode all at once. Since then I have tried Marijuana several times, as before this, I was an all-day, every-day smoker. Now I can't really touch the stuff. It's really sad for me, I miss it greatly.
So very occasionally I will have a puff of a joint, or have 1/4 of a cone/bowl of weak-grade herb, but unwillingly make the decision to generally avoid it. But lately, still, I have been getting a really tight chest, which comes and goes randomly, for no apparent reason. Dizziness, extremely lethargic some days, and never energetic on any others. I often sit there thinking about my breathing, no matter what I am doing, unless I'm thoroughly distracted. I have had tests done (at the time of the incident) which said my heart, and I believe lungs, were fine. But I am going to see a Doctor soon, as something about me just isn't right.
The only substance I can touch, as much as I disliked it before, is Alcohol, and occasionally low doses of my prescribed Ritalin. Of course Anxiety medication helps too, and I did try Endone and have a somewhat bad reaction, as I actually got paranoid. My body's really confusing me, but I'm worried something's wrong with my brain, to sum it up. I would ask, is this normal, but of course it's not. I do suffer from Asthma, and it is Winter here, so I'm praying it's some weird reaction to the weather, or alergies etc. But i'm unconvinced as my Asthma puffer does almost nothing, and anything that reduces Anxiety tends to ease these symptoms. Have I fucked myself, so to speak?
For almost 2 weeks after, I was taking a borrowed/given source of Oxazepam (Murelax), which gave me decent relief from my constant anxiety symptoms. Stomach twitches, extremely tight chest, unable to sleep, lethargy (but not when on medication, although that seems counter-productive) are among the more prominent.
After a month or so, I thought my body had recovered, and was getting convinced I was back to normal, and okay. I had been eating healthy, and drinking plenty of water, and had been trying to gain back the 5kg+ I lost in the incident. I was virtually completely drug free during that time, as well. I shortly realized this was not the case, and just like during the immediate weeks after the incident, I realized I could not smoke Marijuana anymore, without intense panic attacks that is.
I had one exceptionally bad experience, after I thought I was "all good", and I smoked 2 cones/bowl's of quality Marijuana, and ended up shaking uncontrollably, getting strong pains in my chest, which at the time was very tight as well. To top it off, my head felt like it was going to cave in on itself and explode all at once. Since then I have tried Marijuana several times, as before this, I was an all-day, every-day smoker. Now I can't really touch the stuff. It's really sad for me, I miss it greatly.
So very occasionally I will have a puff of a joint, or have 1/4 of a cone/bowl of weak-grade herb, but unwillingly make the decision to generally avoid it. But lately, still, I have been getting a really tight chest, which comes and goes randomly, for no apparent reason. Dizziness, extremely lethargic some days, and never energetic on any others. I often sit there thinking about my breathing, no matter what I am doing, unless I'm thoroughly distracted. I have had tests done (at the time of the incident) which said my heart, and I believe lungs, were fine. But I am going to see a Doctor soon, as something about me just isn't right.
The only substance I can touch, as much as I disliked it before, is Alcohol, and occasionally low doses of my prescribed Ritalin. Of course Anxiety medication helps too, and I did try Endone and have a somewhat bad reaction, as I actually got paranoid. My body's really confusing me, but I'm worried something's wrong with my brain, to sum it up. I would ask, is this normal, but of course it's not. I do suffer from Asthma, and it is Winter here, so I'm praying it's some weird reaction to the weather, or alergies etc. But i'm unconvinced as my Asthma puffer does almost nothing, and anything that reduces Anxiety tends to ease these symptoms. Have I fucked myself, so to speak?
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