bobbins123
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First of all sorry for the length of this but I’ve tried to condense this as much as I can whilst not missing out anything that could be important - I also had a look around but couldn't find anything exactly like this but I have seen about 5-htp am now going to try this and exercise...
So basically 3 weeks ago I went to a house party at which I drank booze, took MDMA, N20 and a small amount of Coke. I'm not really much of a drug taker as I've had some bad experiences at University but recently I've moved to a new town and have found a crowd I'm comfortable with so have been doing small amounts recently but this was a larger amount than normal as one of my mates was topping me up during the night.
During the night I had a bit of a panic attack from the N2O - when the song was skipping in my head (basically a similar thing happened years ago so it freaked me out when the balloon had such a strong effect on me that night as it normally doesn’t give me such an anxious feeling). I went to bed for a while and woke up feeling pretty okay and continued with the party and just did one more balloon just to sort of get back on the horse and prove to myself I felt feel fine (which I did).
The next day I felt pretty anxious but just assumed it was the come down but the feeling didn’t pass over the coming week which started to worry me and I assumed it was because of the N2O. I was pretty worried because the time years ago when I thought time was repeating I actually ended up being so anxious that I went to a doctor and started doing CBT for anxiety and felt pretty bad for a long while after. I was worried this was happening again so I starting trying CBT and writing how I was feeling down which helped a bit but not a lot.
By this time - about a week ago - I was pretty worried and thought that maybe I'd really f**ked up and messed my brain as all I could think of was about my anxiety and so booked an appointment for the GP (doctor) and went onto an Anxiety forum, it said that sometimes Magnesium and Vitamin B12 can help anxiety, so I started taking those and also trying meditation and did feel better so cancelled the GP appointment as I thought that could be helping and it could just have been that the effects of the drugs was wearing off.
Now the problem was that I still feel bad and the thought of anxiety is pretty much always at the back of my mind, and I've started worrying again, I'm waking up in the early hours am unable to get back to sleep.
Basically I just wondered what I should do to prevent this, whether this is normal and if it will pass? Thank you so much for reading!
So basically 3 weeks ago I went to a house party at which I drank booze, took MDMA, N20 and a small amount of Coke. I'm not really much of a drug taker as I've had some bad experiences at University but recently I've moved to a new town and have found a crowd I'm comfortable with so have been doing small amounts recently but this was a larger amount than normal as one of my mates was topping me up during the night.
During the night I had a bit of a panic attack from the N2O - when the song was skipping in my head (basically a similar thing happened years ago so it freaked me out when the balloon had such a strong effect on me that night as it normally doesn’t give me such an anxious feeling). I went to bed for a while and woke up feeling pretty okay and continued with the party and just did one more balloon just to sort of get back on the horse and prove to myself I felt feel fine (which I did).
The next day I felt pretty anxious but just assumed it was the come down but the feeling didn’t pass over the coming week which started to worry me and I assumed it was because of the N2O. I was pretty worried because the time years ago when I thought time was repeating I actually ended up being so anxious that I went to a doctor and started doing CBT for anxiety and felt pretty bad for a long while after. I was worried this was happening again so I starting trying CBT and writing how I was feeling down which helped a bit but not a lot.
By this time - about a week ago - I was pretty worried and thought that maybe I'd really f**ked up and messed my brain as all I could think of was about my anxiety and so booked an appointment for the GP (doctor) and went onto an Anxiety forum, it said that sometimes Magnesium and Vitamin B12 can help anxiety, so I started taking those and also trying meditation and did feel better so cancelled the GP appointment as I thought that could be helping and it could just have been that the effects of the drugs was wearing off.
Now the problem was that I still feel bad and the thought of anxiety is pretty much always at the back of my mind, and I've started worrying again, I'm waking up in the early hours am unable to get back to sleep.
Basically I just wondered what I should do to prevent this, whether this is normal and if it will pass? Thank you so much for reading!
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