Bi KaNd*E* RaVeR
Bluelighter
Still Alive
(For Tommy)
April, 2002
All this time I knew it was inevitable that you would go
I knew when we were together that the day would come
When you would pass, and be in a better place
A place where you weren’t in pain
Where you didn’t feel like everyone was staring at you
A place where you weren’t an outcast
A place where you weren’t sick
I know the last time we really spoke
The hatred in both our hearts had grown so much
We didn’t really speak; we just screamed and disagreed
After that, we didn’t speak again… ever
I checked up on you through your brother
He told me what you were up to
You’re same evil ways, hurting and deceiving everyone
You had no love for anyone, because you felt no one loved you
You felt that God played an evil trick on you
Making you so sick for all of your life
Taking your life away slowly
Making you struggle, for 20 years
When your brother told me you were dying, I cried
I honestly thought you would fight through it, though
A week later you died, I cried, I couldn’t sleep
I felt like I was missing a piece of me
You were a big piece of my heart for a long time
I still love you, with all of my heart
I still thank you for loving me while you did
And sharing with me the part of your life that I know was so hard
You’re still beautiful to me
You are still the first man I loved
You are still the strongest person I’ll ever know
You are still alive in my heart.
RIP Tommy
(my ex boyfriend died a couple days ago from his Muscular Dystrophy)
(For Tommy)
April, 2002
All this time I knew it was inevitable that you would go
I knew when we were together that the day would come
When you would pass, and be in a better place
A place where you weren’t in pain
Where you didn’t feel like everyone was staring at you
A place where you weren’t an outcast
A place where you weren’t sick
I know the last time we really spoke
The hatred in both our hearts had grown so much
We didn’t really speak; we just screamed and disagreed
After that, we didn’t speak again… ever
I checked up on you through your brother
He told me what you were up to
You’re same evil ways, hurting and deceiving everyone
You had no love for anyone, because you felt no one loved you
You felt that God played an evil trick on you
Making you so sick for all of your life
Taking your life away slowly
Making you struggle, for 20 years
When your brother told me you were dying, I cried
I honestly thought you would fight through it, though
A week later you died, I cried, I couldn’t sleep
I felt like I was missing a piece of me
You were a big piece of my heart for a long time
I still love you, with all of my heart
I still thank you for loving me while you did
And sharing with me the part of your life that I know was so hard
You’re still beautiful to me
You are still the first man I loved
You are still the strongest person I’ll ever know
You are still alive in my heart.
RIP Tommy
(my ex boyfriend died a couple days ago from his Muscular Dystrophy)
