Step 1: Powerlessness, Question 4

How does my personality change when I’m acting out on my addiction? (For example: Do I become arrogant? Self-centered? Mean-tempered? Passive to the point where I can’t protect myself? Manipulative? Whiny?)

02/27/2010 11:22 AM

Now that I’m in recovery and I notice myself acting out on my addiction I see that my personality changes in a variety of ways. Depending on the catalyst, I can be full of rage, violent, detached/withdrawn, prone to isolation, calculating, arrogant, self-willed, obsessive, compulsive, self-centered and self-seeking.

 

You listed only negative traits.
What positive changes do you see in your personality?

 

A valid point ocean, OD can we please hear some positive qualities…

 

Well, I do have positive qualities to my personality but I can't seem to think of any when I behave in a manner that is reminiscent of my addiction.

When I'm not in that old mentality I've noticed that I can be quite patient, empathetic and compassionate (hmmmm... for some reason I'm uncomfortable typing that. Fear of ego and lack of humility perhaps?)

Ugh! Its good to be aware of the potential I have to fall into those negative patterns, though. It lets me know what I have to work with and work on

 

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