Nephtys
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jun 14, 2011
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Hi,
I don't know if this is the right forum.
Lately I passed the experimental phase of drug abuse. Not that I start using drugs in a functional way, but I just tried all the classics and some of the more exotic drugs. At this point I feel spoiled. I experienced extreme euphoria in ways I couldn't even imagine. If sober life is an eight on ten, I definetely been on 12 on 10.
When I'm around people who haven't trippend in their life, I just feel a melancholy waving through me.
You can compare it with changing in a vampire. There are the heightened senses, the powers, immortality... But on the dark side there's the constant animally hunger for blood, you can't stand the sun...
I don't regret using them, I even started daily meditation thanks to psychedelics. They enriched my life in a divine way.
But now when I'm among non-users, I feel spoiled, a little bit sad they will never experience the awesome things I've seen. Was I even meant to experience a 12 on 10?
This spoiled feeling is weird.
Does anyone knows this feeling and what I should do with it?
I don't know if this is the right forum.
Lately I passed the experimental phase of drug abuse. Not that I start using drugs in a functional way, but I just tried all the classics and some of the more exotic drugs. At this point I feel spoiled. I experienced extreme euphoria in ways I couldn't even imagine. If sober life is an eight on ten, I definetely been on 12 on 10.
When I'm around people who haven't trippend in their life, I just feel a melancholy waving through me.
You can compare it with changing in a vampire. There are the heightened senses, the powers, immortality... But on the dark side there's the constant animally hunger for blood, you can't stand the sun...
I don't regret using them, I even started daily meditation thanks to psychedelics. They enriched my life in a divine way.
But now when I'm among non-users, I feel spoiled, a little bit sad they will never experience the awesome things I've seen. Was I even meant to experience a 12 on 10?
This spoiled feeling is weird.
Does anyone knows this feeling and what I should do with it?