TL;DR at the end, sorry I feel the need to vent what I experiment
I used various stimulant occasionnally/semi occasionnally for a bit more than 6 month (1 or 2 binge per month, on average using 1 time a week not forcibly in binge mode, took a 1 month break somewhere), a habit wich ended eventually in pure addiction from the beginning of this year (100 to 300mg 2fa per day).
Since amphetamine make you basically an overconfident asshole, I almost lost the support of my girlfriend due to poor decision and wrong state of mind, and was using hallucinogen fairly frequently without fear things going wrong (mainly LSD, 4hoMET and 4acoDMT). Hopefully, I didn't develop things like psychosis or HPPD, neither from amp nor from 5ht2a agonist.
I finally kicked my addiction since last tuesday (will not use stim again, sticking to acid/exceptionnal empathogen now, I'm bored of shitty drugs).
I experienced nothing severe from wednesday to friday (aside craving), where I used only codeine 1 time in the fear of experimenting terrible withdrawal (with codeine Im generally ok for 2 days : the day I take it and the afterglow day). I was quite happy to see I (seemingly) wasn't getting unmanagable withdrawal.
But I began to feel somewhat crap friday afternoon, and on saturday it hit me literally like a truck (unshakable anxiety, aches, dizziness, almost paranoid at time, feeling like I got the mega flu). I basically slept (not well) all the week end.
Gone for a walk with gf at the end of the week end and felt a bit better, but today while I don't have much physical symptom and less anxiety I am down, motivationnless, depressed, lethargic, cognition is inexistant, can't speak, can't laugh, move only because I'm obligated to.
Unavoidable terrible withdrawal set & setting : I need to work in front of a screen all the week on a important project, and I'm currently living with useless/emotionnally handicaped parents (at least they are proud of my decision to kick my habit - I wonder sometime if the only emotion they experiment is being proud of something or themself).
Only positive side is that I don't experiment craving anymore (how to crave smth wich make you feel like that ?).
Seeing I only used for 2 month, how long can it take to get functional again ? Is there any way to make all the stuff more manageable ? I read somewhere eating vitamin C help, so it's what I do (I try to eat healthy, I use the overeating symptom to eat a wide variety of fruits). If I was listening to myself I would be going for walks all the day in nature, but I can't in my situation.
Ive 70mg etizolam and 2g weed at hand, can they be of any help ? I crave weed in my state but I fear it will make all the motivation problem only worse. I don't feel the need for etiz at the moment, and I'm not sure if that can help.
TL;DR : I used stim for at least 2 month at dose like 100/200mg 2fa a day to 400/500mg on exceptionnal days, stopped 6 days ago, got sick since 3 days and I fear it isn't the end. What can I expect taking into account dosage/frequency ? What can I do for speeding up the recovery process ? Can I get any help from drugs Ive currently in my possession (weed && etiz) ?
Thx
edit : I don't have the money nor the logistics means to get supplement dopa 5htp stuff, and that's for hippies.
I used various stimulant occasionnally/semi occasionnally for a bit more than 6 month (1 or 2 binge per month, on average using 1 time a week not forcibly in binge mode, took a 1 month break somewhere), a habit wich ended eventually in pure addiction from the beginning of this year (100 to 300mg 2fa per day).
Since amphetamine make you basically an overconfident asshole, I almost lost the support of my girlfriend due to poor decision and wrong state of mind, and was using hallucinogen fairly frequently without fear things going wrong (mainly LSD, 4hoMET and 4acoDMT). Hopefully, I didn't develop things like psychosis or HPPD, neither from amp nor from 5ht2a agonist.
I finally kicked my addiction since last tuesday (will not use stim again, sticking to acid/exceptionnal empathogen now, I'm bored of shitty drugs).
I experienced nothing severe from wednesday to friday (aside craving), where I used only codeine 1 time in the fear of experimenting terrible withdrawal (with codeine Im generally ok for 2 days : the day I take it and the afterglow day). I was quite happy to see I (seemingly) wasn't getting unmanagable withdrawal.
But I began to feel somewhat crap friday afternoon, and on saturday it hit me literally like a truck (unshakable anxiety, aches, dizziness, almost paranoid at time, feeling like I got the mega flu). I basically slept (not well) all the week end.
Gone for a walk with gf at the end of the week end and felt a bit better, but today while I don't have much physical symptom and less anxiety I am down, motivationnless, depressed, lethargic, cognition is inexistant, can't speak, can't laugh, move only because I'm obligated to.
Unavoidable terrible withdrawal set & setting : I need to work in front of a screen all the week on a important project, and I'm currently living with useless/emotionnally handicaped parents (at least they are proud of my decision to kick my habit - I wonder sometime if the only emotion they experiment is being proud of something or themself).
Only positive side is that I don't experiment craving anymore (how to crave smth wich make you feel like that ?).
Seeing I only used for 2 month, how long can it take to get functional again ? Is there any way to make all the stuff more manageable ? I read somewhere eating vitamin C help, so it's what I do (I try to eat healthy, I use the overeating symptom to eat a wide variety of fruits). If I was listening to myself I would be going for walks all the day in nature, but I can't in my situation.
Ive 70mg etizolam and 2g weed at hand, can they be of any help ? I crave weed in my state but I fear it will make all the motivation problem only worse. I don't feel the need for etiz at the moment, and I'm not sure if that can help.
TL;DR : I used stim for at least 2 month at dose like 100/200mg 2fa a day to 400/500mg on exceptionnal days, stopped 6 days ago, got sick since 3 days and I fear it isn't the end. What can I expect taking into account dosage/frequency ? What can I do for speeding up the recovery process ? Can I get any help from drugs Ive currently in my possession (weed && etiz) ?
Thx
edit : I don't have the money nor the logistics means to get supplement dopa 5htp stuff, and that's for hippies.
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