I can't listen to Tool sober without hitting the bottle. The song sober is a rough one for me.
I would just hit skip or leave the room or take a shot of liquor. I am not an alcoholic but I am someone who has a drink when something shitty happens.
Velvet Underground "Heroin"
Dj Tiesto, Dj Icey, Dj Aphrodite all remind me of a friend who passed in a rather tragic way, He was Army Rangers and they really didn't give much of an explanation but I would say burning to death is bad, I remeber dude gave me this one album and I still spin it but never sober, I haven't rolled mdma in a decade at least but its cuz I did it twice a week for years and I just stopped feeling it and yes I it was tested.
I still drink, smoke, and well I never want to stop doing hallucinogens
I think its pretty stupid to make yourself miserable. I don't see a point in making an excuse to use. Every time I clean up on my own I get some bullshit like "is it gonna last or promise me this" and well I quit shit qhen I start slipping. Its my life and my body, if I want a drink I don't drive so I do try to do my best to not endager people's loves but people's feelings, fuck that shit. I find friends are rare, the only relationship I am in is the one that hasn't failed so 99% prcent of relationships end, and well familyain't shit if they shit and mine I have forsaken.
I tell people straight up well not today at least but I ain't gonna be miserable for anyines benefit except for when life circumstances demand it. I would rather be clean on the outside then using in prison.
So fuck the bullshit, go push yourself into a relapse if you want it. Mine are well thought out. I know I am gonna have a drink today and I would like it now but I plan on going out so nope. I want to shoot some dope but I want to never get strung out again so I am gonna do what I gotta do to cope.
You are in control of what you listen to and where you go and don't lie to yourself. It is very rare when someone literally forces you to use but it has happened to a friend of mine who was held down and injected and to me but it was different and something I ain't going to go into again on here.