Supeudol
Bluelighter
Well - to start off I just got out of Rehab about 2 months ago for a heavy 5 year Oxycodone & Benzodiazepine Addiction. I suffer from severe anxiety, and depression now. I think if it weren't for fucking marijuana in the first place (WHICH CAUSED MY FIRST PANIC ATTACKS) I would be fine today. 
Anyways, I can't seem to make any new friends, and all my friends just drink and do fucking drugs. I have been dabbling in GHB, and getting myself into a bad habit here again. My parents don't seem to have a fucking clue about my anxiety, and my mom just gives me shit for it and says just move on with life, etc.
I also live in the WORST FUCKING COUNTRY in the World. (its impossible to get any sort of help at least the province where I am in). People are fucking dickheads here as well.
I fear I will never meet a nice girl. I mean I really like this girl right now, but kind of fucked up last night as I was pretty fucked up on GHB and 1 of her best friends was not too impressed with. (Yet it's fine if they do fucking E and drink - oh because Alcohol is so socially acceptable.)
Sometimes I think it would just be much better ending this suffering and ending my life. I am only 24 years old, and I am not trying to seek attention here guys, just very anxious & depressed. Only reason I am using GHB is because doctors can't seem to find the fucking problem to these extreme Skin Sensations (chills, burning skin & goosebumps). Now I am finding when my dose where's off, I am getting some bad tachycardia and bad anxiety again.
Not loving life right now, nor have I for the past few years.


Anyways, I can't seem to make any new friends, and all my friends just drink and do fucking drugs. I have been dabbling in GHB, and getting myself into a bad habit here again. My parents don't seem to have a fucking clue about my anxiety, and my mom just gives me shit for it and says just move on with life, etc.
I also live in the WORST FUCKING COUNTRY in the World. (its impossible to get any sort of help at least the province where I am in). People are fucking dickheads here as well.

I fear I will never meet a nice girl. I mean I really like this girl right now, but kind of fucked up last night as I was pretty fucked up on GHB and 1 of her best friends was not too impressed with. (Yet it's fine if they do fucking E and drink - oh because Alcohol is so socially acceptable.)
Sometimes I think it would just be much better ending this suffering and ending my life. I am only 24 years old, and I am not trying to seek attention here guys, just very anxious & depressed. Only reason I am using GHB is because doctors can't seem to find the fucking problem to these extreme Skin Sensations (chills, burning skin & goosebumps). Now I am finding when my dose where's off, I am getting some bad tachycardia and bad anxiety again.

Not loving life right now, nor have I for the past few years.

