Something of a whinge.

[DS_]

This year as some of you may know I broke up with my girlfriend I had been with since I was 17. We'd been together 9 years. She's still the closest person to me yet I can't speak to her as I've stopped myself getting hurt by her since she doesn't want us to be together and I can't be friends without being nuts.

This time last year I was long term unemployed, tackling multiple drug problems (smack,ket,ampet) and currently I've managed to kick those drugs almost entirely, but the almost is getting closer to entirely. I've got a nice job, that pays well that I do enjoy but shift work isn't for me. I am a weekend warrior at heart. I initially thought that getting a job that made my social situations a little more scarce would be a good idea for me. It turns out it isn't. I used to be unable to go out because I had no money due to a combination of drug addiction and lack of funds. I was still going out tho. I lived in the centre where the fun happens where little things would occur and I'd spend another party in blissful blur. I now live in Suburbia, and I'm away from most of my friends and when I do get days off they're on strange days like a bloody Tuesday or something or it'll just be 1 day on the weekend.

I don't know what I want from this. Just a little moan. I suppose what's annoying me is while I enjoy the job, I like working in the care industry and making people happy, just hate that I'm beginning to rethink and that maybe a soul destroying job with free weekends might be better for me?

Fuck knows.

 

[spudgun]

I'm in a similar, but reversed situation, DS.

I split up with my long-term girlfriend just over a year ago. We'd become kind of insular (which was a contributing factor) and I had lost touch with most of my friends, and the ones remaining in London are properly settled down.

The thing is, I'm in a job which pays well, but does not involve very much apart from 9-5 (if that). It's what I thought I always wanted, but I don't think it's good for me - it means I get home at 3 and piss about doing unhealthy stuff to pass the time till I have to be back in again. I kind of think things would be better if I was doing something I was more invested in, but I've never found anything I wanted to do that pays.

The grass is always greener...

 

[swampdragon]

I don't know what I want from this. Just a little moan. I suppose what's annoying me is while I enjoy the job, I like working in the care industry and making people happy, just hate that I'm beginning to rethink and that maybe a soul destroying job with free weekends might be better for me?

Hmm.. well you can be glad that you're a step closer to figuring out what you enjoy doing, which is working in the care industry.. and maybe you need to figure out how long you can tolerate doing shift working, and then aim to switch to a similar job that's Monday-Friday working?

 

[DS_]

Hmm.. well you can be glad that you're a step closer to figuring out what you enjoy doing, which is working in the care industry.. and maybe you need to figure out how long you can tolerate doing shift working, and then aim to switch to a similar job that's Monday-Friday working?

Yeah that's what I've been thinking. If I learn to drive what's the chances of a private care position allowing me to work 9-5? Anyone with any ideas?

 

[Chatative]

I think swampy is right... you've made some real progress & seem to have found something that you enjoy. I'm sure if you look hard enough you'll be able to find a care job with hours that suit you. You might have to make some sacrifices though, that's life.

I would imagine you'd need a good year or two of experience before being able to get a private care position but you might already have enough experience. I really have no knowledge of such things, it's just speculation.

If I've learnt anything from the shit I've been through, life is short... you just got to follow your heart.

I've managed to get past my problems largely speaking, limited my drug use & now I just need to get settled with a job. It's good to hear of someone making similar changes.

 

[MrCookiE]

Very interesting post.

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

The party has to end some time if you want to get stuff done (onthe whole), guess the question is whether that time is now for you?

 

[swampdragon]

Also.. you're young enough to take a few years' sabbatical from partying and then start again once you've got a better work schedule.

 

[DS_]

The party has to end some time if you want to get stuff done (onthe whole), guess the question is whether that time is now for you?

It is now but I believe it's possible to have a healthy balance between going to parties (on the weekend) and working a job. It's just whether I'm able to continue having a job I enjoy along with the balance. I absolutely LOVE music, partying is less about drugs to me (although a very welcome accompaniment.) I've been going to parties nearly 10 years and I still love it although I'll admit I'm somewhat jaded, everything must be right otherwise I really can't get into it regardless of who's playing if the other important variables (rig,setup,sound level, loads of other borderline audiophile shit) aren't fulfilled then I'm sulking, anyway I digress.