Been an on and off opiate user for 6 years, sometimes getting to the point of "junkie."
Stopping never sucked, except this last time. Usually my symptoms were just apathy and insomnia for 2-3 weeks.
For the last 2 years, pretty much non-stop, I've been abusing:
Norcos (usually 70-80 mg)
Hydromorphone (usually 12mg or more)
Tar Heroin (dub or up smoked/insufflated)
Poppy seed Tea (2 pounds of seeds or more)
Ms contin (usually 200mg chewed up, abg brand)
Oxycontin (80mg crisped)
Percoset (usually 40+mg)
Now, the last couple months it was pretty much just Heroin with Poppy seed tea near the end.
I usually never missed a day of one or the other, almost always was H.
I made the choice to detox, at least to get me out of this cycle of money hunting and hurting. My last drug before detox was a crisped Op80. The first two days were unimaginable hell. Everything you'd expect. Halfway through day two, I caved and got help from my mother and the ER. Gave me 5 .5mg ativan. Mom gave me 3mgs xanax that i spaced out. They helped the anxiety but still couldn't sleep. Day 3, physical symptoms have abated greatly, just left with anxiety, insomnia, and muscle spams when trying to sleep.
Fast forward to day 4, actually 96+ hours since the oxy, running on 2 hours of sleep throughout the whole process. Out of benzos. No real pain to speak of, Stuck with insomnia which is making me miserable. Now finally cave, hit my emergency "failure" stash, and take 60 mg ms contin chewed up. High as FUCK. Never been this high off 60mgs of mscontin. Sleep like a baby.
Next day, feeling no additional wd symptoms. In fact, feel perfectly normal, just lazy as fuck. Next two days, apathy is a beast that i can seem to conquer with ridiculous amounts of caffiene.
Today is 6 days after that last dose of morphine, so 10 days total since I took the oxy. I've slept every night. I'm not depressed. I'm not apathetic really anymore. I can pretty much function. Not taking any meds except the occasional clonazepam when bored. Not even at bed time. No cravings. In fact, I have about 400 mg of morphine left within my grasp. Haven't even WANTED to touch it.
My questions are these:
Why didn't that dose of morphine completely set me back if it got me so high? I've heard the horror stories of making it weeks and then one dose of something weak putting an individual back in hell. Why, after so long of being addicted to heroin, oxy, and much stronger opiates, am I already feeling like it never happened after 10 days?
Is this some sort of calm before the storm? Minus those first three days, this seemed almost too easy.
Stopping never sucked, except this last time. Usually my symptoms were just apathy and insomnia for 2-3 weeks.
For the last 2 years, pretty much non-stop, I've been abusing:
Norcos (usually 70-80 mg)
Hydromorphone (usually 12mg or more)
Tar Heroin (dub or up smoked/insufflated)
Poppy seed Tea (2 pounds of seeds or more)
Ms contin (usually 200mg chewed up, abg brand)
Oxycontin (80mg crisped)
Percoset (usually 40+mg)
Now, the last couple months it was pretty much just Heroin with Poppy seed tea near the end.
I usually never missed a day of one or the other, almost always was H.
I made the choice to detox, at least to get me out of this cycle of money hunting and hurting. My last drug before detox was a crisped Op80. The first two days were unimaginable hell. Everything you'd expect. Halfway through day two, I caved and got help from my mother and the ER. Gave me 5 .5mg ativan. Mom gave me 3mgs xanax that i spaced out. They helped the anxiety but still couldn't sleep. Day 3, physical symptoms have abated greatly, just left with anxiety, insomnia, and muscle spams when trying to sleep.
Fast forward to day 4, actually 96+ hours since the oxy, running on 2 hours of sleep throughout the whole process. Out of benzos. No real pain to speak of, Stuck with insomnia which is making me miserable. Now finally cave, hit my emergency "failure" stash, and take 60 mg ms contin chewed up. High as FUCK. Never been this high off 60mgs of mscontin. Sleep like a baby.
Next day, feeling no additional wd symptoms. In fact, feel perfectly normal, just lazy as fuck. Next two days, apathy is a beast that i can seem to conquer with ridiculous amounts of caffiene.
Today is 6 days after that last dose of morphine, so 10 days total since I took the oxy. I've slept every night. I'm not depressed. I'm not apathetic really anymore. I can pretty much function. Not taking any meds except the occasional clonazepam when bored. Not even at bed time. No cravings. In fact, I have about 400 mg of morphine left within my grasp. Haven't even WANTED to touch it.
My questions are these:
Why didn't that dose of morphine completely set me back if it got me so high? I've heard the horror stories of making it weeks and then one dose of something weak putting an individual back in hell. Why, after so long of being addicted to heroin, oxy, and much stronger opiates, am I already feeling like it never happened after 10 days?
Is this some sort of calm before the storm? Minus those first three days, this seemed almost too easy.
