some crap

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once upon a time
in a perfect universe
i would have believed every word you said
how easily my dear lady
has revealed the truth to me
and shown me that I was better off dead

so naive we were
to put such a strong faith
in a word that was never real
so untried we were
to believe this world
that love was something we could feel

to watch you
take away from me
the devices that kept me drawing breath
without moving
without attempting
to stop you from hastening my death

i never cried before
i don’t ever think i shall
ive been relieved of all my senses
i never died before
an alluring commodity
has been given me in excess

as I lift my face to see the sun spit down on me
i pray it is the same sun that you see

for the last time
ive felt your icy nails
withering my skin
for the last time
ive felt your vile lips
siphon the life out of me
for the last time
ive felt your mendacious lexis
malign my self esteem
for the last time
ive felt your paralyzing embrace
perforate my heart again

 

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Carnal

Awaken to suffering, tight as nails can grip
For this cursed beauty hunts me forever
Taking a breath as anger mounts within
Such pain must be released
Like a migrant beast yearns for meat fresh
A body screams for madnesss embrace
The need to taste the warm, moist flesh
From this pain I hide

Sights that try before the eyes
Reminding of society's insane demands
Wanting, craving, dying inside
Regulations keeping the beast at hand

carrying such burden, witness such enticing acts
The simplistic notion of want superceded
To embrace and slam her flat on her back
For release I cry

Come with me, consume me
Run your eyes straight through me
Embrace you, to taste you
My need, deep inside you

Satisfying my pain

Voraciously engulfed by the carnal apetite
Consuming desire takes mind dominant
Dreaming of my nonixesting nymphyte
Electrified, noetic love transcendance

A rabid, unfed animal cringing in the darkness
Embracing naught but lonliness
Blundering deep into slumber thoughtless
Yearning deeply for her presence

Unfaced goddes of serptentine splendor
The instrument of lifelong desire
Engaging in phantasmic subconscious endevor
Released from what not wanted, but needed

The taste of bare flesh and caress of soft skin
Such burning fervor yields madness with time
Pulsating primevil hunger raging within
Hiding it all deep inside...

Come with me, consume me
Run your eyes straight through me
Embrace you, to taste you
My need, deep inside you

Drown me, in pleasure
Our minds bound forever
The touching, erupting
And infantile sucking

Satisfy my pain

 

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Hidden

lights out
no need to shout
never knew what it was about

detach
as iron nails scratch
in the vein of a hopeless grasp

in flames
burned in rage
once strong city in its shames

gangrene
the efforts of machine
methods to calm the unseen


I can see it die
Hidden inside


open up
you filthy little slut
a rape on a mind thats always shut

decay
whither away
remnants of the ego now frayed

madness
has come upon us
in the slow settling of the dust

no trust
peel away the crust
watch as a soul returns to dust

As it dies
What was hidden inside

Locked away
Locked away
Forever

Locked away, forever
Locked away
Forever

Paranoid
pain deploy
Lost in the bleakness of the void

Lock tight
Keep it outta sight
horrors arisen in the night

No touch
but longing too much
never know the meaning of love

unknown
all alone
facing all his fears on his own

no one can know
no one will ever know
what is hidden inside

It will die
If you dont want it, it will die
hidden inside...

 

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untitled

Revel, Cry, and Complain, little child

Witnessed, have you, these secrets
Hidden desire for release
And end, to the endless nightmare
Architecture of genocidal nature
Shall the dream give way to endless peace?

Trapped alone in spectral bliss
Unseen tormentors clawing away reality
I cant help but gaze in epic wonder
A realm of endless frames and ceaseless hiss
To stand alone is endless challenging

Oh, to be free from the Earth's grasp
Satisfyed the rage against mankind
As my flesh becomes devoured by the venomous smile
The scarlet brush has swept the last trace of time
As it is fruitless to look behind...

Behold, the monuments of a vanquished universe
The unseen dimensions of the eternal
Desperate to to express this state, yet unable
Frozen in speech, the gaze of those be-numbed with thought
With such shape to hold the infinite infernal

Cought in the moment of sheer transformation
Endless hopelessness and malignant sorrow
Without release, without remorse, descending further
The most chasmic of minds could not summon such wonderous shades of black
Indoctrination of emptiness, hollow

Buried in the obscure moments of existence without time
Lost in the sea with unobtainable land
Every cell of the spirit exploding with pain
Winds of the vortex scorch and scream
unable to accept the madness at hand

All the while unable to rationalize
Unable to comprehend, the maslestrom adorned
Synpozium of sufferring, lost souls
Nonexistent ego, unable to mourn
Unable to know you were warned

 

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Fairweather Friend

hey
over here
you will find
the body of an impoverished soul dry heaving hate

you
never knew
what was in
side this defensless broken falsehood carapace

well
now that my
wrists are cut
and blood splashes all over your pretty face

now
finally
you will step
outside your timid comfort zone just to erase

all
memory
of the time
you had to go out of your way put out of place

slowly one by one
the snowflakes pile on my chest
buried here for weeks
fresh snowfall hides its hallowed guest

quickly how they move
pretending as if they ever cared
searching endlessly in vein
fresh snowfall hides what I could not bear

how
amazing
it seems to be
I cant be left alone in peace in life but when I die

they
try to find
a complete waste
of flesh apparently unfit for this undeserving life

why
is it fine
wasting money
on the dead but unable to give but a hand when someone cries

I
hope that they
find their end
out here with me buried deep frozen under snowfilled skies

it
was just so
beautiful
to let go of that last breath and achieve the final high

quickly one by one
beautiful pure white space endless
in nothingness I am complete
fresh snowfall hides this hallowed guest

quickly i depart from your world
it takes death for anyone wake up and care
time is only relative, death is assured
and the fresh snowfall hides what I could not bear

 

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this was a poem to you adn it has no title sorry

Every day I meet a new face,
though not the same place,
Every day I enhance this world with another beautiful person
I shake her hand, with him I walk this land.
New people every day, new places.
Every day I enhance my world with another
beautiful spirit.

We laugh
We cry
We embrace
We get high
Sometimes time passes us by
We own this world 'cuz we cannot die
But just like every other
The all fade away
Everyone dies, everyone cries
Everyone moves on to create another chapter,
I wave her goodbye, I say to him goodluck,
The packed up memories, deep into my mind are tucked.
I meet more and more, and loose the same.
Were all just spinning in this vortex anyways.
Everyone Ive known has passed on by
Everyone Ive known Ive kissed goodbye...
But I sill

I laugh
I cry
I embrace
I get high
Sometimes time passes me by
Im out of this world 'cuz I cannot die
But your much different than anyone ive met
Like battle ready sword, always sharp and wet
Even though I know our paths will someday cross again
I know my hart will choke not seeing your face till then
My world forever changed, how youll never know
Such infinite beauty, such strength you have shown
The pieces of my life only you have given to me
THe pieces of my soul where you will always be

We laughed
We cried
We embraced
We got high
Sometimes time passed us by
We own this world 'cuz we cannot die
Your the only one ill miss forever.

 

[frostyangel]

Let's just say "it's been awhile." but it's good to see you in this forum again... and yet still you are my FAVORITE writer.

You words are strong and incredible. And you explain all your emotions true and vivid... (remember we can't say "amazing"..lol)

Well, I hope these demons pass... because It reminds me of a better time that went real bitter... and remember don't be bitter just reconcider

Your definitely a complex boy I tell ya.... keep up the good work... I WANT TO SEE MORE OF YOU IN HERE!!!

Love frosty....xoxo

 

[starlightgemini]

You've left me almost speechless.

It's good to see a side of you I don't normally have the chance to see, since many things stay hidden inside.

Reading these, I was smiling at the beauty and eloquence of your words yet wanting to cry for you at the same time, because I could almost feel your pain... and I don't like to think about you being sad. Or feeling empty or abandoned, or feeling any of the emotions you feel when you lose someone you love. Maybe I can't sense every emotion you were expressing here but your words above had me mesmerized. At this moment I can't honestly remember reading a poem I've felt more captured by. And maybe it's just because they're your words and emotions "on paper" either way, I loved your work.

Love,
Kristen