What do I do? I miss my dog so much . He had cancer . It's been almost a month since I put him down.
His 12th birthday is aug 11 ... that's going to be a hard day ...
My boyfriend and I are going to break up soon. I can't handle it anymore. He's such a little shit head.
I don't want to to be alone .. I've always had my dog , no matter what at least I've always had him .. but he's not here with me .. there's so much going on and I have no one to talk to .. who can understand, who do I know that will believe me when I tell them that...
I knew my dog was going to die.
He told me . So I hired an animal communicator. I wanted to ask him what part of his body hurt so I could tell the vet. I scheduled an ultra sound and X-ray. He had just went to the vet , had blood work , he was fine. I hate the vets out here.
She shrugged her shoulders when I told her he was losing his bark . She said his stomach looks a little big but he was fine, I could go home.
So anyway, I learned from the animal communicator that he wasn't fine. She told me that he was preparing to die. That he was ok with it. That he sees it as a graduation .
He wanted me to know , THAT HE WASNT LEAVING. It was very important to him that I know that. She did an energy scan of his body and said his energy was very low and whatever it was had spread through his body . And he didn't feel good. She said she couldn't tell me when he would pass .
So after a visit to the holistic vet, I learned he had a tumor the size of a softball on his liver . And a possible mass in his lyrinix (voice box) .
Cancer. Thank you vet prescribed medications that kill the liver and your dog along with it. I paid money for those pain meds. They said it was ok ,just get blood work every now and then.
So 3 weeks after my phone session with the animal communicator, I had to put him down. He was in a lot of pain
He would of been 12 a month and a half later .
I've been trying to be ok about it. He was my child. My family .
He said he wasn't leaving ...
I feel him sometimes but not like I thought I would . Im a spiritual person, he feels so far away , I can hardly feel him at all sometimes. I'm getting angry . I can connect with other spirits but why not with my dog??
My boyfriend gets mad when I talk about my experience. He is never here anymore. He's choosing meth over me.. I need to leave ..
I woke up at 5 am this morning to him not in bed with me . He took off somewhere. We have nothing between us anymore.
I don't want to be alone . But i can't stay here... I'm dreading those nights alone . The heavy heart . I want to get high so bad. I can get roxys super cheap... I don't have any friends... maybe one , but he works all the time. He's not someone I can really talk to either.
There's work, I have decent job... I'm recovering from a sprained foot... when I go back it will help ... but a wave of depression always comes over me when it nears time to go home...
I feel lost and afraid. Afraid of the future. I know the pain I'm going to face with this break up. I remember all to well how I was before I met my boyfriend. How alone and depressed I was. I was praying everyday for god to put someone in my life.
It's been 3 years since we hooked up.. seems like this might be it ... I know it's what I need to do . I need to leave ..
I really wish I had that group of friends you can count on....
I miss my dog
His 12th birthday is aug 11 ... that's going to be a hard day ...
My boyfriend and I are going to break up soon. I can't handle it anymore. He's such a little shit head.
I don't want to to be alone .. I've always had my dog , no matter what at least I've always had him .. but he's not here with me .. there's so much going on and I have no one to talk to .. who can understand, who do I know that will believe me when I tell them that...
I knew my dog was going to die.
He told me . So I hired an animal communicator. I wanted to ask him what part of his body hurt so I could tell the vet. I scheduled an ultra sound and X-ray. He had just went to the vet , had blood work , he was fine. I hate the vets out here.
She shrugged her shoulders when I told her he was losing his bark . She said his stomach looks a little big but he was fine, I could go home.
So anyway, I learned from the animal communicator that he wasn't fine. She told me that he was preparing to die. That he was ok with it. That he sees it as a graduation .
He wanted me to know , THAT HE WASNT LEAVING. It was very important to him that I know that. She did an energy scan of his body and said his energy was very low and whatever it was had spread through his body . And he didn't feel good. She said she couldn't tell me when he would pass .
So after a visit to the holistic vet, I learned he had a tumor the size of a softball on his liver . And a possible mass in his lyrinix (voice box) .
Cancer. Thank you vet prescribed medications that kill the liver and your dog along with it. I paid money for those pain meds. They said it was ok ,just get blood work every now and then.
So 3 weeks after my phone session with the animal communicator, I had to put him down. He was in a lot of pain
He would of been 12 a month and a half later .
I've been trying to be ok about it. He was my child. My family .
He said he wasn't leaving ...
I feel him sometimes but not like I thought I would . Im a spiritual person, he feels so far away , I can hardly feel him at all sometimes. I'm getting angry . I can connect with other spirits but why not with my dog??
My boyfriend gets mad when I talk about my experience. He is never here anymore. He's choosing meth over me.. I need to leave ..
I woke up at 5 am this morning to him not in bed with me . He took off somewhere. We have nothing between us anymore.
I don't want to be alone . But i can't stay here... I'm dreading those nights alone . The heavy heart . I want to get high so bad. I can get roxys super cheap... I don't have any friends... maybe one , but he works all the time. He's not someone I can really talk to either.
There's work, I have decent job... I'm recovering from a sprained foot... when I go back it will help ... but a wave of depression always comes over me when it nears time to go home...
I feel lost and afraid. Afraid of the future. I know the pain I'm going to face with this break up. I remember all to well how I was before I met my boyfriend. How alone and depressed I was. I was praying everyday for god to put someone in my life.
It's been 3 years since we hooked up.. seems like this might be it ... I know it's what I need to do . I need to leave ..
I really wish I had that group of friends you can count on....
I miss my dog