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BumbleBee33

BumbleBee33

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Good morning. I have been using the blue light forums to educate myself for what seems like the last 10 years. Before that it was the hive. I'm a critical care RN and I like stimulants :). Self management of side effects has been my major problem lately. I'm getting older (37) and I can feel it. Bluelight has provided lots of harm reduction info because I always end up doing more and sleeping less.
I am very grateful for my career because it keeps me straight at least 1/2 the time. I look forward to the continuing education you guys will provide me with this year.
( love plugg'n and would have never tried if not for you!)

;) Bumblebee33
 
Hey there.....fellow stimulant lover lol. I'm also in my 30's and hold down a corporate job while inside I'm a pharmaceutical mess.

Your job must be so stressful, do you always have to take a stimulant to work? I have a boring job and always have to take a stimulant just to make it exciting.
 
Bumblebee, welcome to the hive. Your name brought a smile to my face it reminded me of an old Blind Melon video. I've spent a lot of time "UP" myself. Glad you decided to swarm with us.

D.T.B.T.
 
You guys are so awesome. I definitely don't need a stimulant to stay busy at work. I need it now because every time I'm off work (work for 7, off for 7days) I don't taper like I should.
I'm actually nervous because my dude isn't getting back to me. My resources are limited, unless I stoop lower, enter a world I no longer wish to belong to and spend more $$ then I need to.
My job pays very well too so I am able get what I want. I started getting a 1/2g. Last time I re-uped I got a ball, well almost. It was like 3.3g, lasted me about 12 days.
I sleep almost every night and when my BF questioned me (we used together when we met) I showed him a bag of DMAA I had ordered online, told him it was a legal high. He said I was acting like a tweek, lol. I've toned it down a bit since then.
Also, we smoke pot every day. It helps me sleep and DECREASES my paranoia, can you believe it? I WILL NOT smoke weed while working, too agraid I'll kill someone.
As for the stress, the hardest part is keeping people alive for so long when they just want to die. It is very hard for family members to turn off life support.
 
Hi BumbleBee33! I'm an RN working in progressive telemetry (33). I don't do any drugs but found BlueLight very informative. Initially as a way to understand how people self medicate and why ... But more so now for fun. Lots of great discussions! Welcome =D
 
Welcome to Bluelight BumbleBee!
Tell the rest of the AutoBots to come chill and we'll have a party!

just playing.

Enjoy it here!
Any questions, just ask!

-HOOD
 
Thank you so much for asking. I've been trying to reduce harm and I feel I'm knowledgeable.....

Bruising.....I do get dehydrated at times. Also ran out of protein powder.

Sweating....usually when I need more water

Vasoconstriction, cold extremeties.....mom has pulmonary hypertension..... I quit ciggeretts 2 yrs ago. Did the vape thing for 1 year. Started working out when I put that down and started the meth again when I hit a platue.

Its been 3-4 weeks since I got NO sleep. I do rotate 1 week as a day shift (off) and 1 week night shift (working) some nights 6, most 4

I eat (also smoke weed/BHO daily Never while going to work. Helps me sleep when I get home) so MUNCHIES

I want to bulk myself up. More muscle, I try to eat healthy but eat crap too

Thanks again
 
Absolutely! Because I'm not ready, well almost. The f**king side effects are bad !!! I take lots of supplements.
If I stop I'm so zoned out and can't be satiated....I'll eat till I puke.

Lately I tell myself everyday that tomorrow will be different.. Never is...
 
Tomorrow I'll stop. I've told myself that daily for years at one point in my life or another . Many in the bluelight family can fully relate to this circle of insanity. I know for me, something had to stop me most of the time, job or relationships threatened. The law. Hopefully it won't take something life shattering for you to stop. Do you ever get drug tested at work. I know you put yourself at risk when you connect to some degree. No matter how smooth we think our buys are shit can happen. I've looked back with 20/20 vision and wished I ed done something sooner. I can feel the pain in you're post. I wish I had that magic advice that inspired you to effortlessly quit tomorrow but that's not reality. Hopefully others will chime in with something that is of more help. Please keep posting l care about you.

DTBT
 
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