It took me so long
to trek to where I am now.
The length doesn’t quite justify
the present somehow.
I could’ve spent the span
sitting in the same spot for as long as I can.
Instead of taking the first step from which began
A length perambulating
in a circle on steps I’ve trod before.
The circle should be a spiral.
circumnavigations tightening in circumference to an eventual centre.
Circle is blinking and I have no clue
as to what is meant.
Error, warning, continuance of stepping is what I do.
All this time that’s spent
with no divulging of the centre’s core
I’m saying all this shit to myself as
I take the weekdaily step out my bedroom door.
There’s no praying to protect me against the day in stall.
I falter, clutch the handle with a loosening grip.
When was the last time I knew I said what I meant?
It took me so long
to look freely at my life.
Travelling from, amidst and into the strife.
Where is the wife to keep me strong?
When’s the last time I knew I said what I wanted to after I said it?
It took me so long.
It took me so long.
to trek to where I am now.
The length doesn’t quite justify
the present somehow.
I could’ve spent the span
sitting in the same spot for as long as I can.
Instead of taking the first step from which began
A length perambulating
in a circle on steps I’ve trod before.
The circle should be a spiral.
circumnavigations tightening in circumference to an eventual centre.
Circle is blinking and I have no clue
as to what is meant.
Error, warning, continuance of stepping is what I do.
All this time that’s spent
with no divulging of the centre’s core
I’m saying all this shit to myself as
I take the weekdaily step out my bedroom door.
There’s no praying to protect me against the day in stall.
I falter, clutch the handle with a loosening grip.
When was the last time I knew I said what I meant?
It took me so long
to look freely at my life.
Travelling from, amidst and into the strife.
Where is the wife to keep me strong?
When’s the last time I knew I said what I wanted to after I said it?
It took me so long.
It took me so long.
