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Chadd1

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Hello people

Im gonna ante up again.

Well time has come for Detox to be over with. I've made the choice to walk away from 1mg a day of a legally prescribed SUBstitute, it's been a long journey down from PM having been prescribed 100mg a day of a long acting full Opiate.

I know a lot of you Seniors out there know some of my story. Well, because I leaked it. I saw it only fair that way because I've read some of your stories. I had also made a conscious choice not to hide behind anonymity nor hide location.

I pray that this brief will be an example that if you go looking hard enough for Opioid based Pain Management for Chronic Pain you will find more than you have bargain for.

My emotions have all ready returned and I've been beating myself the fuck-up. I do a damn good job from hiding bad emotions and tears from my family, kids and friends. After all the drug cocktails I was prescribed and chose to take for the life of me I don't understand how I made it out alive, but I have given thanks to God.

I took some notes and a page out of Just A Guy playbook and flushed all backups, save for a limited supply of medium-caliber long acting benzsos (also legally prescribed to protect my ass).

I do not ask nor want any sympathy, just a little encouragement. I will try to update my pain and progress as the days roll on.

And finally, to respond to a Senior members question about a moral bias. No... I have my beliefs and I made some of them clear and I'm at peace. May only God judge me.

Thank you PriestTheyCalledHim for being overtly kind.
 
Ive been on 1 mg for about three weeks myself. Its not bad, at night it gets a little uncomfortable but whatever. I want off this garbage so bad. Its been over a year, and I'm just over it. A friend told me to split the 1 mg in half and one day take a piece in the morning and a piece at night, then the next day just the one piece. Makes sense but I can't afford to withdrawal hardcore as I have a family to support Chadd let me know how it goes, you can and will do it my brother
 
@bbr1982 - yea it becomes garbage after a while, but it does serve it's purpose and save lives. All I can say to you is continue your taper and prepare yourself mentally. If you poise yourself coming off a low dose the only obvious sign should be the sweating.

@cj - thanks for your blessings for good luck.

Well folks, it's day #2 and I'm okay, but I'm waiting for all the fun to begin in about 48hours or so. I'm enjoying my benzo-free sleep while it lasts. Im thinking of picking up some low-carb beer instead, but I don't know. What do you guys think?
I must admit that I've gotten a new found respect for you ex-H users.


Edit: feel free to message with questions. I will always answer as best I can.
 
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Wow, this is an amazing thread. I'm very pleased with the universe right now :)

EDIT: And I'm also very pleased with you OP! =D

That is an awesome post up there at the top <3

Keep up the good work, you can fucking do it companero/a!
 
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Thank you toothpastedog, your words have helped more than you know. Again.. Gracias guay.

Day 3
No real physical pain just lethargic and no energy. Decided to pass on the beer as I did not want to drink in front of my kid. Blood sugar is spiking having to inject insane amounts of two types of Insulin ir/sr. I'm no little guy I stand approx 6ft 240-250ish. When I was in pain management I was eating like the Cookie Monster, I'm paying for that now too.
No appetite only eating once a day right now, mostly a sandwich or soup.
Other than all that my head is in a good place.


Edit: Voltaren Gel is your friend people, it has no heat and penetrates deap.
 
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D+4
Some trouble sleeping last night, made myself get some exercise during the day. Then took a shave, shower and got rewarded with some natural sleep, about four hours.
Its 830pm right now. I'm having some back and joint pains, but IBU and the Gel that I have is helping some. I'm doing my best to stay positive and I'm ready for some rough days.
 
For those who cared:
I had to impose solitude upon myself for a little over a week now.
Before I did that I put priorities in complete order checked double checked and triple checked.
And certain precautions where put firmly in place. As predicted it has been some good old fashioned fun.
Someone said in another thread that it will bring the strongest man to his knees and I am here to verify that it will make you question yourself. I took advantage of the painful time to reflect back on my life and I was able to figure out where things went wrong so I am in a good place and in the process of forgiving myself and being contrite in dealing with my past sins.
 
I tend to do the same thing. One thing I have learned is to let go of things that have happened and not dwell on them.

How goes the detox? You should be feeling a bit better now? Any plans for staying sober in the future?
 
​Yes Chef, I am starting to let go of the past. As far as the detox goes I believe it is more of protracted or prolonged WD at this point. And yes, things are starting to get easier. I feel like I'm at the peak on the down hill slope. Staying sober? I'm still figuring that shit out, but I can shoutout that the opiates are not going to be in my life.
 
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