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so I'm ready to die

Mmmmm I love lamb kebab. I used to make my own after a nice little smoke sess :D You ever get down on the devil's lettuce?
 
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Lamb kebab? Chetori? (My gf is Persian).

Have you heard about a medication called, "Baclofen". It's been around for years used primarily for MS patients but recently a few doctors have been using it to treat addiction, with miraculous results for several different types of addictions. Alcohol primarily, but others as well. So before you go, do a little google searching and head over to the website "<removed website info - OverDone>". The fifth discussion group deals specifically with Baclofen. As for offing yourself. I believe that each person in the world is like a star, a beacon of light in the sky which when gone leaves the sky that bit darker for the rest of us. I think we are all like snowflakes...totally unique...there never has been and there never will be anyone in this world---past, present and future just like you. I also think that it should be the Universe that decides how long our star, our light will shine. You never know what tomorrow might bring. Who knows, YOU could be the one who proves the efficacy of Baclofen for YOUR addiction. That would make you pretty special also, and a leader----THE leader of those caught in the same hell as you. You just never know. Right?

Maybe I'll see you over at the <removed website info - OverDone> forum. I use the same name there too (Dabhar). I'm being set-free of my 29 years of alcoholism. I'm 52. Hmmm....52 minus 29 = 23!

Take care. Hope to see you around "this side" for a long time coming. We need you, the world needs you, even YOU need you...I think that you just don't realize that yet. :(

Dab <3
 
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talk to a good friend

and keep talking; dont ever stop until you feel better

also, please enjoy this picture of some baby ducks in a sink

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Honestly dude life is too SHORT anyways we all die soon enough..


If you want my opinion you need to goto rehab and reevaluate things and get a clean head bro...

Prob not what you wanted to hear but... dam 23 u gotta a WHOLE lotta life ahead of you..... you have no idea
 
All I got to say is, I took a lot of acid for years when I was young like 17-25. I'm 30, getting clean off other stuff, but I know what you mean about benzos helping. Doctors wont prescribe me crap that is above schedule 2 (i'm marked,lol) It does get better. Takes a long time, but just go see an herbalist type voodoo doctor, they usually help the natural way. Hippies did it back in the day, and look at the generation ( don't look too long, might get a flashback)
 
herbalist voodoo doctors, shamans, reiki masters, massouse's the list goes on ive tried them all, the people telling me to go to rehab and shit, i actually dont have a drugs problem, i had a drugs problem hence i feel so shit now because ive been withdrawing from drugs for months but havent touched any but i feel horrible. I went to a few parties this weekend, it was pretty epic but its not like i feel any better come today i had a great weekend but im still in exactly the same place i was in before just with a few good memories thats all.
 
Sorry I don't remember you mentioning but have you ever had a chat with a psychiatrist? Maybe it isn't some neurological problem, but more just you being unhappy with a certain aspect of your life. For instance, I was depressed because I was doing poorly in school but I had been lying to my parents about my grades. I told them I was doing fine and that I could see the finish line...that was so far from the truth. The guilt had manifested into depression. Just an example. Also I kept my opiate habit a secret from my girlfriend for two years, which also made me depressed because I felt bad about lying to her. I was also worried about her finding out 'cause I'd hit everyone up in my phonebook when I was jonesing.

Anyway, glad to see you're still with us!!
 
yeah seen a psychiatrist, never did me any good just put me on nasty anti - d's which made me feel worse, i see a psychologist which i think its better and its alright but not life changing. Im so stressed out because ive tried everything every scope of health from alternative to modern medicine nothing has helped its only made things worse if anything.
 
i feel the same way you do. im 22. and to all the people saying "well you have your whole life ahead of you," that's the point.

humans are social creatures, so you can't help but be affected by those around you. but if society is almost nothing but sick, distracted slaves, why would i want to take part in that society?

honestly i'd rather be talked into suicide than talked out of it. i sift through these kind of threads all the time and i've yet to become convinced that death is a negative thing, or that life is so special. to live is to suffer.
 
Don't you have anything you want to fight for ? I'm basicly you minus hard drugs and a few years younger, always sincere, helping and that "fucked up guy who gets things rolling" at parties. Nobody but a few people would guess that i battle the question of the purpose of life everyday but what keeps me up is my intelligence. you dont seem stupid, really, only smart people suffer depression (at least in my personal theory where stupid people dont think about their life and just do while smart people have to answer themselves questions about the purpose of life all the time). Spread the word, develop theories, maybe use your intelligence to do something creative.
Life is full of oppurtinities once you open your eyes. I know that sounds like every damn fucktard who ever told you to just "get over it". But if you think hard you will realize that you are only perceiving reality as a bad thing because your seeing it as a bad thing. Since youve taken loads of hallucinogens you should know that reality is such a weak word. Use this knowledge to enhance your reality.

Hope i could cheer you up for a moment, I'm not that experienced with talking to suicidal people (luckily i guess)
 
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Don't you have anything you want to fight for ? I'm basicly you minus hard drugs and a few years younger, always sincere, helping and that "fucked up guy who gets things rolling" at parties. Nobody but a few people would guess that i battle the question of the purpose of life everyday but what keeps me up is my intelligence. you dont seem stupid, really, only smart people suffer depression (at least in my personal theory where stupid people dont think about their life and just do while smart people have to answer themselves questions about the purpose of life all the time). Spread the word, develop theories, maybe use your intelligence to do something creative.
Life is full of oppurtinities once you open your eyes. I know that sounds like every damn fucktard who ever told you to just "get over it". But if you think hard you will realize that you are only perceiving reality as a bad thing because your seeing it as a bad thing. Since youve taken loads of hallucinogens you should know that reality is such a weak word. Use this knowledge to enhance your reality.

Hope i could cheer you up for a moment, I'm not that experienced with talking to suicidal people (luckily i guess)
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wise words, Life really is full of oppurtunities for those who can do them, I feel pretty limited to oppurtunities in my current state (im not sleeping and im in alot of pain) so i cant really do too much. Your right the whole concept of reality is weak, for some reason my reality or perception of it is corrupted what ive found very very odd is that Ive actually had trips where this has basically felt corrected almost like i "plugged myself back in" apparently this isnt uncommon the problem is ive gone out and smoked pot which has just broken me again and then i cant get back to where i was comfortable in my skin and healing.

It feels as though now that im drifiting further away from health rather than towards it, like as time goes on im just getting worse than better, its hard to explain but thats how i feel. Its not like i dont fight, I was going to kill myself today actually but now ive decided to go to rainbow serpent instead (big festival psytrance etc...) so at least have some fun, you never know maybee i just might click back.

I know this is probabbly going to sound way out there but i think im going to try sun gazing, people have gotten to the point where they do not have to eat and just rely off the sun for energy.

this has actually been documented and verified by docotors who watched the man for 411 days i myself dont want to get to this stage (althought it would save alot of money) but the guy reckons that after 9 months if you have done it correctly you should be healed on all levels being mentally spirtually and physically.

i beleive this because i do beleive we are light and also looking at myself in the mirror after some pretty intense yoga i can actually see one side of my face looks darker almost 'devoid of light' and this is a side of my body i experience pain on.
 
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