So I suck at tapering...

Like the title says I suck at tapering, I'm bored, utterly utterly bored of my life and of taking pills, Ive know for quite some time that I have a few screws missing so that might have contributed to both the dependance and now my decision to go cold turkey from taking benzos.

I am even sick of hearing the word 'benzodiazepine' Yes I am sure they can be/ are useful but not for me anymore ...

Ive said before I am going cold turkey and never actually managed it so hence I am destroying my stash and toughing it out...

If I have a seizure or something I honestly dont really care, I often wonder why I get myself into these situations and one of the main factors is how impulsive I am and seem to lack the foresight to see what my actions will lead to... anyway enough about that for now... This is my first blog entry on here and it feels kinda weird

anyway team, hardcore withdrawl here we come! this is gunna make the rugby final fun..

 

good luck, for what it's worth...
sometimes i tell myself, everything we feel comes down to a chemical reaction in the brain, so why is it so wrong to try to self medicate? but too much of anything is bad, i guess. i don't know. i think too much anyway, don't listen to me lol.

 

hang in there and every tough part about it will be worth it in the outcome, NEW ZELAND!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

haha yeah so glad new zealand won! It was close tho...

and Miss Miss I often have the exact same thought! reality is just a variety of chemical reactions occurring in our brain whether you are happy or sad or in love or of course as high as a kite...

anyway.. it didnt last long.. Im pathetic... I told someone something I really shouldnt have and fucked up big time and of course my answer to this was more benzos FUCK how am I ever gunna get off them?!