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Bluelighter
During a recent 5 day stay in the local psychiatric hospital Dual-Diagnosis Unit due to excessive abuse of alcohol (admitted after being hospitalized with a .4 blood alcohol level) I met an awesome beautiful girl who had recently tried to kill herself with an od of xanax and ambien (she was admitted a day after me). The guys at the table I was sitting with started talking about fucking her right off the bat in a really crude way as soon as she walked in---she did look really hot in those scrubs, though. I don't participate in that kind of conversation usually, especially not this time. So after a minute I got up from the table and went to talk to her, she was eating alone and of course, troubled. We connected from the start...talking about all sorts of things. We had shared interest in theatre and art, liked the same tv shows, she laughed at my jokes (with girls can be a rare occurrence) and wanted to spend time together while we were in treatment, and we did. We cuddled a bit on the chairs watching tv and got asked by staff to put some space inbetween us. Once in the end days of treatment we held each others hand during a therapy session, covertly under blankets, it was pretty meaningful to us (discussed afterwards) and I kissed her on the head as she leaned on me just after therapy finished.
On the way to dinner the day before I touched her on the back, she didn't mind, but the staff said that that was it and that we would have to be separated where I would be put with the suicidally depressed and low functioning patients for the next day. We tried to change their minds, but it didn't work, we hugged and were separated.
She made it clear to call/text her as we had exchanged numbers, and for a few days(we ended up getting out the same day) we talked and texted by phone. She wanted to know what I would say if she said she thought we should have a shot at a relationship together. We talked Thursday and she was supposed to go see her family in a neighboring town with her 5 year old daughter, yeah she's a mom and 25. I have no kids and am 28 but would like to have kids so that didn't bother me. She said things like I made her time in there bearable, that I was amazing, she would always be here for me, and she was super supportive of me getting into AA and treatment as well.
We were supposed to meet up this week and she hasn't returned any texts or called like she said she would. I think she either came to her senses, her family found out and didn't like the idea, or something terrible happened like her kid being taken away or some shit. I have been coming to terms that she just doesn't want to talk to me anymore, but she said all these things about a possibility of us afterwards. l accept that she may have changed her mind, but I don't know what to think really. I need some advice please!!!
