buttershots21
Bluelighter
So today was the day I switched from my MS Contins to these patches. The Malli's that I see everyone complaining about not working well enough are working just dandy here. Maybe too damn dandy. I'm used to taking my 180mg morphine in the morning, getting my warm fuzzies and the meds wearing off throughout the day, until the next morning, when I do it all over again with my perc 10/325 for breakthrough pain. I take my meds for pain, but the warm fuzzies are nice too, and two or three times a month I might take an extra one of my 60's on a bad day to feel a little fuzzier and drop my pain to a 1-2 instead of the constant 4-5 it's usually at. I also take Xanax for anxiety and I have frequent panic attacks, especially when trying something new. So I'm in a totally backwards situation. I put this first, 50mcg/hr patch on, around 10:30am, this morning. Worried that from everything I read, these things would SUCK. Now it's 7:30pm, this shit just keeps coming at me, getting stronger, and it's nothing like what I'm used to. Reading that it can take up to 6 freaking days for this shit to peak in my system has got me rattled. I don't want to take a Xanax (.5mg) and make a potential problem worse, but I don't want my panic getting the best of me either. I can't use my pupils as any sort of guideline unless the straight up disappear, because they are always on the smallish side no matter if I'm on meds or completely in WD's for a solid week. This feels like a combo of taking a lot of Suboxone with a handful of Tramadol, it's not a feeling I enjoy at ALL, and I'm only like what, 8 hours in? I see a sleepless night ahead of me for sure, for fear of falling asleep and not waking up, even though I have my husband and a friend here both "babysitting" me. Because what if they fall asleep too? Fuck I hate being this paranoid!!! And I don't like this feeling at all. I don't like feeling "high" apparently because this shit is just not right. Any advice on how paranoid I'm being about the Xanax? I've taken my 3 a day most days, with my morph and percs, for over a year now with no issues. Unless you count sleeping good an issue. It's gonna be a loooong three to six days at this rate!! And people LIKE this shit? WHY????